I’ve never loved myself. But you have made me hate myself. I’ve never wondered so much in my life Why I wasn’t good enough. You’ve made me feel so ugly, So fucking gross. Every time you touch me I imagine that you wish you were touching her. You say it was all a joke to you; talking to her. But I know it was more than that. And the only reason you came back to me was because she no longer wanted you after finding out who you really are. It’s a vicious cycle that I am caught up in Because after 6 years together, I am too in love and too afraid to let go. But some days I just hate you so fucking bad. I can’t stand the thought of your hands on my fattest parts Because I know you don’t enjoy it And that makes me want to die I hate those parts of me too. Now I can’t eat anymore. The mere thought of it makes me want to die as well. I can’t think of anything else other than being skinny So maybe i’ll be enough finally So maybe you’ll stop with these other girls and give that attention to me. So maybe you’ll love me again.
