#forevercrush

'"I don't want to grow up." Tom Waits said it. I live it. I put myself in a position to be a kid as long as I want to. I play loud music and scream for a living.'

I remember when I used to admire you from afar

I watch you walk around the hall, hair down and glasses bigger than your face

You have this cute height but you’re the only one I see amidst the crowd

My eyes followed your every move like a spotlight in the dark room

All I have were questions, who are you? where can I find you next? I wonder which ward are you in or do we even have common friends?

I don’t see you often but I keep on looking for the next

I know for that moment, I have the biggest crush on you

I’m inlove with your smile, those perfect set of teeth

I fell inlove with the emotions your eyes bring whenever you look at something with full attention

I know you were special because I have never felt so cold and warm at the same time whenever you looked my way.

I want to meet you, to know you and if I get lucky maybe you’d get to know me too?

I remember asking someone for your number but was declined

I was able to text you but got responded with a cold shoulder

ok, I don’t know maybe you think I’m weird

I put on a joke but you tap me with an awkward remark

ok, so maybe not that kind of humor

I ask if you can bring me some food but of course you don’t find it fair

ok, so maybe you’re not just in the mood

I ask if you can bring me home something, even the smallest, cheapest from a trip but you totally forgot about it

ok, maybe I just wasn’t clear of what I was asking for that’s why you can’t remember

I asked one of our common friends that I’m free if they’re going out to hang, I’m hopeful you’d be there. Yes, you were there but just that I never get an invite.

These are some of the few crazy things I did, like a stone I was using to hit the moon. But I will never have it in any other way.

Because one day, throw and shoot, repeat I was able to shoot the shot and life has never been this happier. 

You are my brightest star, my greatest discovery was finding you. The universe is vast but our paths aligned and I’m thankful we happened.