#forestdwellerxx

As a twenty year old, its hard to imagine my future in an optimistic fashion when everything in my life currently seems to be falling apart. When life's got you down, it is so important to adjust your way of thinking. If we think positively, good things, opportunities, and people will come our way. It's hard to be positive and hopeful for a better life when things aren't going as planned but I promise that forcing yourself to think and envision your life the way you want will only make it that more real.

I’ve been thinking a lot about this word recently. There are some things in my life that I wish never happened... but it was a mistake and I learned. However, the things we regret most in life are the things we never did. I sure do regret not going to that random party a few years ago due to my anxiety. I regret not joining more clubs in high school and college. All of these little things that don’t really seem to matter that much. But what about when you are 80 years old… What will I regret when I can’t do the things that I have the ability to do now. My bliss comes traveling and that is all I truly want in my lifetime. I don’t want a fancy house, car or lots of money. I don’t even want to own anything. I tell myself all of the time that I will go to every country someday. I will hike to Machu Picchu, walk the Great Wall of China and see the pyramids in Egypt. But what if I never am able to do this? What if the thing that I want the most in life is something I will never get? I will be done with my bachelors degree in a year and then it’s onto my graduate program. What if I fall into the never ending loop of responsibilities and crippling debt? This possibility haunts me every day. I promise that I will not regret this.

If I'm ever on the radio I'll probably die