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struggling with whether to keep my theme blue or make it pink

Grossstadtgeflüster - ICH KÜNDIGE

my sister: Then why you all up in my grill?!

I have many flaws, I've made many mistakes One of them was not taking advantage of opportunity sooner. I'm really so so so very sorry... But not as much to you as I am to myself,  "I should have done this back in February..." "I just wanna tell you, no matter what happens, everything will be alright." Then I'm gonna shut up and let you take over. 8 days never seemed so damn fucking far away. The good news is at least I know who I am, and what I want now. If you don't want the same thing, tant pis. There's only so much time I can whittle away thinking about you, your antics no longer intrigue nor hold much leverage. It's gonna take more than just a few fleeting words to hold my interest at this point. I've been completely devastated by the concept of love these past months, especially the past two years since I've come out. I've never been able to fall out of love with you... I'm not sure if it's even possible that I will. But I will never forget the pain you've put me though, inadvertently. I only need two things, and I will promise you two things in return: These go for EVERY SINGLE FUTURE LOVER TOO: 1. Utmost honesty when it comes to our completely open communication 2. A healthy and fulfilling romantic relationship complete with quality time and an ability to flexibly understand one another's needs. In return, as long as you follow these rules... I'll follow the rules above as well.  You see, I wanna be your everything just as I think of you as my everything. My brother, my mentor, my lover, my soul-mate, my student, my therapist, my guide, my leader, my follower and of course my mad scientist ;) God, the moments we've had together have been completely inexplicable. Instead of dreaming about the buried treasure... Is it not time to dig it up out of the ground together?

i love you. you are the sweetest.