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this was a big project - 30 frames total!

  The jazz hands she'd thrown up at the end of the song quickly came down to cover her mouth in silent laughter. She wasn't used to nerding all-out in front of someone like that. Serious performance was one thing. But heaven forbid she actually act like more of a numpty than she already did in front of other people.

you are entirely correct on the really sweet part

Diary:Rot is..heh... it’s still weird to say, to think.. but.. we’re pretty strong together I think? I don’t think he realised though.. how much work I can be.Heh...  I don’t think anyone does.Not that I try to be... but.. somehow it happens. I’m too much of so many things and not enough of what I’m meant to be I guess?Still. He puts up with me. Loves me. Even tries to get over the fact he doesn’t approve of specific choices I made.. I could do a lot worse couldn’t I? haha.. he’s so... special. I just wish he’d -talk- to me about shit more...instead of making me pull teeth just to get a rough idea of how his day has been.  I get more and more frustrated everytime, and I don’t think he realises how hard it is to not worry when I don’t know if there’s anything to worry about or not, and of -course- my mind has to imagine the worst.. because if it was just simple stuff.. he’d tell me... right? Although I know he won’t... not unless I keep asking and insisting... Still... not like this is anything new really right?I’m a little nervous I won’t lie. Resets... they’re happening in his timeline a lot.. what happens if he gets a true reset? Will he recall? Or will I see him one day and he’ll just look straight through me, like any other stranger who doesn’t know me would?Wish I knew. I can only pray...I don’t want to lose him. I don’t want to lose what I have.

they’re born… the little one… Faul and Gigi’s…h-heh… s’fuckin’ cute as shit… I got to hold them for a little bit, He’s called them Sonne…sun…h-heh.. seems at least now he has a new sun. That’s good right?He wants to be friends still.. maybe more? I’m going to make them a pet anyway… think I have some ideas.It’s as weird as ever, hearing people talk about kids, telling me how it is, or what it is… not Faul… but.. just.. in general, letting me know what should only be expected, as though I’m not supposed to know anymore, as though I’ve never known. As though… they never existed. I’ve muted the memories… changed my soul around a little, it’s easier to hear it this way, but it’s still weird.Still odd to feel that light little weight in my arms though. A hand so tiny in mine.It seems to be easier if I pretend anyway. So I’ll keep that up. Keep a smile. It’s the easiest way right? It’s for the best. And who knows, maybe in time me and Faul will be close friends again. He needs friends. His smile still isn’t fully there yet. I want to see that smile again, I want him happy.I want all my friends happy. For that.. yeah. I’ll keep working.I miss him. You know? I can’t tell him that, it would destroy everything I’ve done this for. but fuck.. I miss him. I miss his arms around mine. I miss curling up in his lap knowing that this gentle giant would never hurt me...I hate what I’ve had to do. I hate that I’ve had to hurt him like this.I got asked once if I minded him and Gigi being lovey dovey... honestly? Even if it.. kinda hurts? I earned that. I insisted he did it. So him and Gigi could be happy, so they could have their kids. Even if it’s just one kid now...he was meant to be mine though. I don’t blame him.. he does that to himself enough... but.. heh..I have to stop writing. I’ve already filled too many pages. I just wish... I almost wish he’d forget me. Never thought I’d say that, but it would be so much easier on him if he could. If he could forget who and what I am and was to him. Ok. No. Stop.I’m stopping. This is the end of this entry.

WHO ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE

I have killed you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧   I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).