#fojvarus

From the tall grasses all you could see was a bobbing flow of pink strands as the girl moved forward. At first she made a quick springy leap into the air and then changed it to a small bound. The last step was to jump as high as she could into the air while making sure to keep a hold of her teddy bear. Hop, skip, jump, she thought as she went along. It was days like these that she tried to keep herself occupied with whatever fun she or even Tibbers could think of. Annie could feel the giggles want to escape her lips as she was truly enjoying herself without any need for company though it would be nice. Her eyes were on the ground as she continued onward only to bump into something. She fell backwards on her bum and pouted at the ache before glancing up to see a man. There were tears swimming in her eyes but she refused to let them fall unless she could use it against him. Make him feel bad for no reason at all. For now she just stared at him for a long time as inspecting him. She had seen him a few times around but his name was out of reach from her mind.

Dear Varus,

I know you are worried that I'm gone, and I'm so very sorry for upsetting you. Maybe you recognise the paper on which I write? I'm in Ionia at this point of writing this. I'm just...travelling. I need to figure myself out, which is why I left.

I'm sorry that I gave you no way of chasing me - especially since you allowed me to bring you back. The knowledge that I did not allow you to bring me back is something that I may never forgive myself for. I had to do this, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less.

You have always been a brother to me, and no doubt you will continue being a brother to me. 

Maybe I'll pass your village along the way. I'm not sure if the route I'm taking will pass it by. Maybe one day we'll talk about it. I don't know what is to come, but I know that I'll walk until I find what I'm looking for.

I'll be back one day, and we'll talk properly, of that I swear.

With love,

((Wait I’m assuming you wanted a diary entry because that would be the only thing to make sense XD))

Dear Diary,

I wonder sometimes if Varus knows just how special he is. He stood beside me all this time and gave me so much support. I really did mean it when I called him a brother.

She was waiting, waiting for Demacia to get her wind of her current condition. If they did, however, they didn’t act on it. Lux wondered what was protecting her and thanked her lucky stars - it seemed she still had a few to watch over her.

Still, on the outside she appeared the same. The transition from Luxanna to Lux had been bumpy, to say the least, and she still jumped at shadows and people, meaning she kept to herself.

There was one person she was looking for today though - someone, she knew, meant a great deal to her, someone which had sent her on a hasty search throughout the halls of the Institute. She was so focused on finding this one person that she didn’t even see him until she collided with him.

Luxanna drifted through the hallway. Part of her was, and had been aware, of the attention she'd been attracting over the past few days - but most of her no longer cared. She was mostly numb to the others now...and numb to herself. The things she'd been learning were things she couldn't accept, and that hit her hard. Anybody could see the bags under her eyes, the slight trembling in her hands, and the frailness of her gaze.

Something was terribly wrong with her, and she could no longer hide from it. She knew that someone from Demacia would learn that she was breaking slowly, and for some strange reason, the knowledge made her more terrified than it should've. Surely Demacia would be able to fix her, but something told Luxanna that Demacia was somehow involved in her current status - which was ridiculous...Demacia would help, not harm her...right?