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Okay so I was just trying the gateway experience and I was on orientation so the very beginning. Has anyone else whose tried it suddenly feel like you can’t breath? I got like ten minutes in and I had to stop because suddenly I felt like someone just popped a squat on my chest and I’m still struggling to breathe and catch my breath now. I could just be getting sick or something but it was so sudden and odd. Someone please tell me if this is normal 😭

q: why does it hurt so much? a: you asked me to destroy you. q: yes. i guess this isn't what i pictured. a: i won't destroy your body, because it isn't time for that. this will destroy your self esteem. q: do i need self esteem? a: certain people need it at certain times. you don't need it where you want to go. so if you want, you can go on without it.