#fo!reader

At first it fascinated you but then it annoyed you. Poe Dameron was as entertaining as he is annoying. He's a few years older than you and had conveyed immense relief when he heard your voice. He had thought that you didn't exist.

You haven't met Poe yet but since you started hearing his thoughts you felt a little less alone in the world. Your parents had died a few years prior to 'meeting' Poe and you were given to people you didn't know. People who hardly cared about you. For the first time in years you had someone to actually listen to you.

Despite the fact that the both of you knew you were each other's soulmates you both agreed to put off meeting each other. The two of you were just too different to meet each other right away.

Poe had never outright thought it during your conversations but it was impossible to keep it from you. He could hear all of your thoughts just like you could hear his. You knew he was mixed with some dangerous people doing less than legal things.

You, on the other hand, were an upstanding citizen. Only your parents and the people who had taken you in when they died despised the Republic. Your parents had fought for the Empire and continued to remain loyal even when it fell. They raised you with their beliefs and when the chance arose you were put into training for the First Order.

Because of your upbringing and his chaotic life you both agreed to put off the meeting. AS stated before the two of you were just too different. His loyalties, despite being an illegal spice runner, were closely tied to the Republic.

You were on opposite sides. You were both convinced it would never work.

If it would never work then why did talking to him always bring a smile to his face? Or the presence of his thoughts in the back of your mind constantly remind you that you'd never be alone? Why did you cling to the little pieces you had of him?

For years everything continued as normal. You kept his every thought pushed to the back of your mind. You continued on with life and when the two of you talked you avoided discussing the tensions going on between the Republic and the First Order.

There was one time you were going about to throw everything away and fly across the galaxy to Poe. A spice run had gone back and Poe was hurt badly. You couldn't physically feel his pain but your head pounded as his thoughts forced themself to the front of your mind.

The only thing stopping you was Poe. He remained calm the entire time but you were a mess. You were used to Poe getting hurt but this was different, this was on a much grander scale.

You were also afraid. What if Poe didn't like you when he met you? What if you disappointed him? What if you were just too different that he wouldn't even want to try?

Of course, Poe had heard every questions and tried to comfort you but you avoided having that conversation with him. You told him to focus on himself and to not worry about you.

It was a rough few weeks before things calmed down. Poe got better and everything went back to normal. There were times you wished you ignored Poe and flew out to find him.

If you went with him then you could leave the First Order. You didn't like what you did. There was a part of you that agreed with what the First Order was trying to do but a larger part that disagreed with the way they were going about things. Plus, with Poe's constant voice in your mind you were beginning to think that maybe the Empire and maybe the First Order weren't the way to go.

Poe picked up on your uncertainty. He didn't jump at the chance like you thought he would. Instead he comforted you because he knew how frustrated and scared you were. He tried to be subtle as he tries to convince you to join the Republic but you didn't have the strength to do it.

You didn't have the strength to renounce everything that you were raised to believe. You didn't have the strength to disappoint your dead parents memory. So, you stuck with the First Order and you raised ranks quick.

It wouldn't be until towards the end of the Cold War that you finally meet Poe Dameron.

Over the last few years you and Poe were contacting each other less and less. The both of you had gotten good at pushing the other to the deepest part of the mind. He was with the Resistance and you were a highly ranking officer of the First Order. The both of you knew things that you just couldn't risk the other knowing.

Of course the both of you were just fooling each other. It didn't matter how deep you pushed the other you could still hear the thoughts. Neither of you addressed the flaw in your plan.

You felt silly that you didn't realize that he was on your ship. You had gotten used to ignoring him that you didn't notice he had been captured and taken prisoner.

You were walking and looking at your holopad when you felt his presence. Your head snapped up and your eyes locked with his.

"Poe," You whisper so softly that you don't even hear it. The stormtroopers force Poe to keep walking but neither of you look away from the other until he's too far gone.

When they turn the corner you almost run to follow them but you compose yourself. You follow normally as if that was the direction you were already headed in.

'What are you doing here?' You ask him through your connection.

'Sight seeing. Heard the galaxy looks better from this ship,' Poe jokes but you can tell he's nervous.

'Poe,' You snip.

'I can't tell you,' Poe sighs desperately trying not to think about his mission. 'I was sent to find information and I was picked up,'

'And you just let them take you? The great Poe Dameron gets picked up by a couple of stormies?' You ask him and he scoffs. Flash backs of his capture rush through his mind and through yours. 'Oh,' You think as you realized Kylo Ren had been there. 'Just tell them what they want to know and they won't hurt you,' You desperately plead.

'Can't do that, sweetheart,' He says, gently. 'It's too important,'

A flash of anger hits you but you push it down. You should have known that he wouldn't have given up his mission. He was too honorable and loyal to the resistance.

'Please,' You say quietly. 'I don't want them to hurt you,'

'These boys? Hurt me?' Poe asks. 'Please, this is a vacation for me. Especially since I know you're here,' He flirts.

'Poe, please be serious,' You tell him.

'Don't worry about me, sweet thing, I'll be alright,' He promises as he's taken out of your view again. The stormtroopers put Poe into a room and closed the door.

'I'll get you out of this,' You vow, turning from the room and storming off. Poe had meant to respond but the questioning was already starting. You couldn't help but to wince as his mind leaked some of the pain onto you. 'Just hold on,' You say softly.

Different plans were soaring through your mind but then your head quietened upon seeing a storm trooper. It was FN-2187. One of the troopers you knew on a personal level. A trooper that had doubts on the First Order just like you did.

You couldn't see his eyes but you knew he was looking at you. A clear plan crosses your mind and you take action. You march towards the trooper and pull him away from everyone.

"I know how you can get out of here," You tell him. He looks taken back and you don't wait for his response. "The man they just brought in. He's one of the best pilots in the galaxy. Help me break him out and he'll fly you away,"

"Ok," FN-2187 nods in agreement. He didn't ask why you were doing this or how you were going to pull this off. He was desperate to get away and you were giving him an out.

Suddenly you let out a gasp and your hand presses against the wall. You could feel Kylo Ren forcing his way into Poe's mind. It was the most painful experience you had gone through.

When it was over you didn't bother explaining to FN-2187 what was going on. You just grabbed his elbow and lead him to Poe. You got him into the room where you run in front of Poe.

"Poe? Poe, look at me," You gently grab his face. Your thumbs gently caress his warm skin. "Baby, look at me, please," You whisper as the trooper begins to untether him.

"Y/n?" Poe asks, coming out of his funk. You smile at him. On impulse you pull his head down and kiss his forehead. "What're you doing?" He asks.

"I'm getting you out of here, remember?" You ask, smiling at him. The instant FN-2187 has him released Poe is pulling you into his arms. You hug him back just as fiercely. For the first time in your life you feel complete.

"Uh, we don't have a lot of time," The trooper says awkwardly. Neither of you wanted to pull away but forced yourselves too.

"Come on, he's right," You take the lead while Poe and the trooper walk behind you feigning a prisoner transport. You help them get into the hanger before splitting from them.

"Y/n," Poe whisper shouts. 'Where are you going?' He asks.

'Follow FN-2187, he knows where to go. I'm going to make sure you two can get out of here,' You say, not looking back at him as you head towards the control area.

'I'm not leaving without you,' Poe snaps.

'You have too,' You tell him. 'You have to find the droid, get it back to the resistance and complete your mission,'

'My droid will find it's own way back. I'm not leaving you!... I just found you,' Poe says gently.

'And I'm sure we'll find each other again,' You whisper back to him. 'But you can't stay here and if you have a chance at escaping you need me to stay behind. Now stop struggling and just trust me,'

'If you don't come back to me I'll take down the entire First Order to get to you,' Poe vows bringing a smile and a blush to your lips.

'I'm counting on it,'

Poe's escape was dramatic to say the least. You tried to keep you involvement subtle but you miscalculated one thing.

When Kylo Ren entered Poe's mind he instantly became aware of the connection between the two of you. He instantly knew you were mated with a resistance pilot. When Poe escaped he wasted no time listing you as a traitor to the First Order and you were taken into custody.

While Kylo Ren hunted down the droid and the resistance the First order interrogated you. They knew you had access to Poe's mind thus having access to resistance plans. They knew that you knew where the base was, their plans and what their strategies are.

You never gave them anything. No matter what painful drug they injected you with or what physical torment they forced you to endure. You wouldn't give up the resistance not because of your loyalty to them but because of your unyielding loyalty to Poe.

You would do a lot of things. Some of them are good and some are straight up evil but you would never betray Poe. You'd never do anything to hurt him. You gladly took all the punishment because you knew Poe was safe.

The drugs they had given you didn't cut off the connection between you and Poe but it made your brain so fuzzy that you either didn't talk to him or you couldn't remember any conversations you might have had. You had no way of knowing how much time has passed, all you knew was pain.

During the times they weren't questioning you, you tried to focus on memories you had of Poe. You recalled past conversations. He was the biggest flirt you'd ever met and no matter how long he was in your head he never stopped. You loved the flirting but always pretended to be annoyed when you weren't giving it right back.

Then you would remember your short meeting. You would remember his musky scent and his soft skin. He was so warm to the touch. You remembered his muscular arms and how the galaxy just ceased to exist when you were in them.

Your time with him wasn't enough. You cursed your younger self for ever agreeing to stay away. You should have left home and searched for him the instant his voice entered your mind. You should have soaked up every minute with him but now all you were left were a few short moments without the promise of a future. It's your biggest regret.

You were so focused on the pain and on the certainty that it would never end that you didn't even realize that Poe was concocting a plan to rescue you. He had told Leia what had happened. She couldn't spare many people but allowed him and Finn to attempt a rescue.

The two man team ended up being four with Chewie and Rey helping. It was supposed to be a stealth mission but everything went to hell quickly. In the end, Poe found your room.

"Y/n... Hey, sweetheart, look at me," Poe slides on his knees to kneel beside you. You're laying on a cot. You're pale, sweating and mumbling. "Baby, look at me... Can you hear me?" No matter what Poe said you couldn't give an answer. "It's alright, I've got you now. You're safe," He whispers gathering you into his arms.

"Poe! Come on! We're running out of time!" Finn shouts.

"I've got her," Poe says, quickly leaving the room.

"She alive?" Finn asks.

"She's alive," Poe confirms taking long strides towards the Falcon. "She needs help,"

When you wake up you don't recognize your surroundings. You're in a hospital you quickly gather. Before you could panic someone's grabbing your hand.

"Poe," You whisper. He smiles at you.

"Hey, Trouble," He mutters causing you to grin even wider. "I hope you don't mind me kidnapping you from the First Order. You were taking too long to come to me. I got impatient," He teases.

"Perfect timing," You tell him. "I was just about to defect," Poe looks immensely relieved. He lifts your hand and tenderly kisses your palm. "I didn't tell them anything," You assure him.

"I know you didn't," He whispers, moving from his chair to sit on the bed. You claw at him until he moves again but to lay down beside you.

"I never told them anything," You whisper. He kisses the top of your head. "Even when I first joined and you went into the resistance,"

"I know, I know," He comforts, rubbing your back gently. "I never said anything either... I couldn't betray you like that," He mutters. You lift your head to look into those deep brown eyes.

"Exactly," You say, softly. "But now we're on the same side," You tell him.

"How convenient," He smirks.

"Thank you," You say, lifting your hand to caress his cheek. "For coming to get me,"

"Of course," He mutters, kissing your palm again. "I'll always come for you. I'm never letting you go. I should have found you a long time ago. To hell with the First Order and the Resistance... I should have had you in my arms years ago,"

"Funny," You grin. "I was thinking the same thing," Poe kisses your forehead again but it isn't enough for you. You scoot up a bit and kiss his lips. His hand instant clutches your hip and he pulls you as close to him as he can.

"You're perfect," Poe whispers against your lips.

"You talk too much," You whisper back. He chuckles and reconnects your lips.

'You love me though,' Poe thinks.