i see why i don't practice anatomy, these drawings are worse than 9/11

I hate it when I paint my nails and the polish is still wet and drying and I look away for a split second and then suddenly there’s an imprint in one nail and I have to redo that nail that has been compromised

once every 2 weeks, for 3 seconds

I have such lovely friends and an absolutely stellar, fantastic, out of this world amazing boyfriend that i do truly and utterly appreciate, however i often sit alone in my room and i feel so empty, as if i dont know anyone. ofcourse i understand that my friends cant be there 24/7 to talk to me i get that, so i tried to force myself to interact with people online, however i really just dont know how, no matter how much my lovely best friend tried to help me i was just so terrified and anxious that i couldnt bring myself to do it, and i feel bad for getting help from my friend because she wasted so much time on a futile cause because of my own social incompetence. thats why i made this account, seperate from my personal one so that none of my friends know its me and i can speak my mind without burdening them with trying to help me, they are not psychologists they already do enough for me. but circling back to my original point, i really just feel so shit all the time, like im just a husk of a human that shouldnt exist, I dont do anything productive, nor do i do anything i enjoy really, the few things i do for enjoyment i either am once again hindered by my social ineptitude and cant speak to the people im playing with or even play in fill lobbies because of my utter terror at the utter thought of me and my abilities being fucking perceived. I think it partially stems from my constant inability to do things outside of playing games and forcing myself to do the absolute minimum in terms of schoolwork (usually late too) with the very occasional bit of guitar playing that is actually fun and helpful and not just noodling for dopamine. but yeah idk

man fuck my pharmacy i just want my stupid little patches why do i need to ask you to ask my doctor to give you permission to refill my prescriptions, om not allowed to ask *them* nonono its gotta be this roundabout way of doing t and since they havent responded i gotta call my doctor and ask them to approve the request for a drug that isnt even a god damn controlled substance

searching 'women reference' on pinterest like the virgin I an

my dad is 3 fucking alex jones podcasts away from becoming a groyper my life is hell