#fmdbenji

19. what is your happiness level these days on a scale from 0 to 100?

They are supposed to write it down on the post-it but Eunjae isn’t sure how to rate it. “‌ I see happiness as a momentary state not a permanent one to the point of lasting days. If anything, I’m neutral more often than not. Happiness, sadness, anger, fear, all of those are emotions that come and go, so I don’t know if I can give a number to that?‌ We can go with a 50 if you must but I don’t see happiness that way. ”

21. what words of advice would you give to someone studying for their college exam?

“‌‌ If I passed, so can you! ” The fan laughs when they give the answer out loud. “ I mean it. I‌ was never the best student and you have to remember that when I debuted I still spent a few years in school. I wasn’t the most dedicated then because I put my career first, and I suffered a bit with the college exam, but it all worked out well in the end. So you can do it, fighting! ”

23. what place do you want to travel to the most?

concerned starters: send a sentence, get a drabble.  

he had a blackout for a second until Benji was there and tapped him on the shoulder. Sanghyun stood there like an empty jar, while his mind was traveling somewhere else. He was conscious, but he was not really there. His chest was heavy, short breath and the loud music blasting from behind caused the space to feel tighter. the countdown began for his stage coming up next, as warned by the staff standing by the backstage to check on everyone’s presence. 

Benji’s features slowly became clear once Sanghyun took control of his breathing. He nodded to the question, but quickly correct himself and shook his head. “A little, but I’m fine,” he had to shout the words out to fight the blaring background music. “Must be a little nervous. I haven’t done a solo stage in a while.”

the air could have stopped circulating, and benji wouldn’t have been any the wiser. he felt the ridges of his teeth with his tongue. it was strange to be implicitly told you were cared for. benji knew that was the human condition, for the most part, becoming close to those around you and developing an attachment to them. if he thought about it in a simplistic way, he’d care if suji was injured, or died. but he hadn’t thought about it. they were simple as they were, just like he was with most of the people in his life.

then, there was the case that she could be saying that because she thought it was what she should say. to be fair, doing a motorcycle jump over bc’s building was a stupid idea. but if it wasn’t stupid, he wouldn’t have suggested it.

he smiled, and wrapped an arm around her shoulders. “i’ll be fine, don’t worry. i’ll live to cock another doodle do.”

suji’s in shock, for the lack of a better word. sometimes, she can’t fully understand what’s going on in benji’s mind. cross that; a lot of times, she can’t understand what’s going on in benji’s head. he’s odd, or at least very different from her, that she finds it weird that they even manage to keep a conversation going sometimes, but then again perhaps that’s why she finds some strange comfort from him. either way, the fact that he even thought about pulling such a stunt was alarming to her, and the way her face was scrunched up showed off her true emotions. 

“is this... a thought you have regularly? like hey, maybe i should do a motorcycle jump over bc’s building just for the heck of it?” she tries her best to wrap her head around the idea, but all she gets in return is his arm around her shoulders instead. she doesn’t bother pushing it off because at this point, she’s genuinely curious if this is a frequent thought.