#fluctuations

I can't distinguish them in my regular thinking, because they are very similar and I guess the coiners coined them without knowing the other term and vice versa. Not sure when exactly versandrogyne came into play, but it's not originally defined as genderflux (unsure if genderflux was coined at that time).

Some also use androgyne as an autonomous/independent gender from masculinity and femininity, then if we think that androgyneflux fluctuates in androgyny, versandrogyne fluctuates the amount of masc and fem qualities. Not all androgynes define them as both masculinely and femininely gendered, although it's a thing for other androgynes. Androgynity/androgyneness is polysemous - has different definitions - because it's a historical word and has many users/self-indentifiers.

But it's one thing to just say that. What I would really like to do, is prove to you that this fluctuating nature of yours isn't abnormal at all, but in fact literally the most normal and fundamental thing in the universe.

In physics, there is this well-established, 100% confirmed branch of seemingly sci-fi gobbledygook called Quantum Mechanics. It is very weird, and complicated, and confusing, and it doesn't match reality on our scale at all. But at a fundamental level, this is what everything depends on just to be.

In quantum mechanics, it is known that the void is not entirely void. Quantum uncertainty still rules. All across the universe, everywhere you look, entire particles spontaneously come into being then annihilate each other before physics notices. Something from seemingly nothing. And this is because the void is in fact roiling with quantum energy, and stability doesn't exist. It's a myth. The void is always fluctuating randomly, in 100% unpredictable ways. It is always changing.

So on a fundamental level, change is the most normal thing there is.

Is that not good enough for you?

Then let's look at time. Time is change. If something isn't changing, time has stopped or no longer exists. Nothing is constant, nothing. Even radioactive waste has a lifetime and will eventually change into inert, safe materials over a long enough time. Everything changes, always, forever.

Change is the nature of all existence. It is normal, natural, acceptable, and necessary for being human. A human who does not change stagnates and gets left behind, often stuck with bigoted unchanging views.

But look at you. You're not like that at all. You are change personified. Your sexuality isn't weird, and there's nothing wrong with you.

I am empty

I am plenty

A righty

Then a lefty

Oh how I fluctuate

I am broken, there's no debate

- 𝑵𝑯

𝑊𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑎 𝑠𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑜𝑟? 𝐿𝑖𝑘𝑒, 𝑓𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑜𝑤, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔! 💌

A: Yes, some do. This can take place in many forms. For some, they only fluctuate between certain identities (e.g. only fluctuate between lesbian and bi). For others, they might often fluctuate with certain ones but still have others sometimes (e.g. usually between ace, demi, bi, but every once in a while have gay, straight, pan). It also might mean they fluctuate in any way but prefer a certain sexuality/label over others. However, some are relatively equal in their phases, and that’s fine.

Researchers put the first step towards the fully microscopic description of kinetic energy fluctuations in collisions of two atomic nuclei. Physicists describe various phenomena in nature according to mathematical equations. Quite often, an equation is deterministic―for a given set of physical parameters it provides the same, unique solution―as in the case of the well-known Newtonian equation in classical mechanics. However, nature is not that simple, but “noisy.” That is, one may observe different outcomes event by event due to various external noises. The situation becomes even more complicated in the case of collisions of two atomic nuclei, which can be regarded as a time-dependent quantum many-body problem of neutrons and protons. In the paper, the researchers tackle this problem, developing a theoretical framework based on the state-of-the-art quantum many-body theory that incorporates with quantal fluctuations, called Stochastic Mean Field (SMF) theory. It has been shown that as a microscopic theory taking fully into account nucleonic degrees of freedom, it successfully describes energy dissipation and fluctuations in terms of nucleon exchanges between colliding nuclei. Although they point out certain room for further improvements, the work offers a promising basis for developing a fully microscopic theory of low-energy heavy-ion reactions that can describe distributions of observables, what nature shows.

The main article:

S. Ayik and K. Sekizawa, Kinetic energy dissipation and fluctuations in strongly-damped heavy-ion collisions within the stochastic mean-field approach, Phys. Rev. C 102, 064619 (2020); preprint: arXiv:2009.11978 [nucl-th]

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