18/April 2021

Under the influence of Tomorrows (by Son Lux) 2244 I became a thinker again. While I was doing dishes I’ve been wondering what mood am I in - until I broke a glass teapot, and I knew I was shocked and hurt. I’m going to believe, that it’s a sign of good luck, haha.

Last night, before I left this world - to the world of dreams I don’t remember, I reminded myself - to learn to not feel fear. Speak my soul. I’m taking notes. In the mindset of doubt. Uncertain. Undertones of fearful. Fearless, I become. You are. I always thought I’m something, I’m not. I like to be undefined, unexpected and full of surprises. It’s nice to be remembered, but I’m fine with being forgotten. The idea of self. Maybe you’ll never know.

Sometimes the end of the world may be the path you wish to walk. To live a life, people inspire me to want - to feel more of life.