#florists

Your bedside clock striked twelve, sitting up as you let out a low groan, rain was hitting your windows causing it to echo the silent room. Today was your birthday, 21th birthday.

You dreamed that your life was gonna get better once you turned 18, and now its been 3 years and its time you realize it does not get better.

bedsheets sinked with your weight as you reached at the table beside your bed, opening your phone to be greeted with a sudden ring.

it was Kim Sunoo, your bestfriend. You first saw him when he applied on a rainy friday night, he was soaking wet but his resumes were neatly dry.. and thats what impressed you.

ever since he got accepted in, you both started hanging out, learning things about one another, you even found out about him having an ex boyfriend, Nishimura Riki. He is a fine man, someone no one can ever compete with, he is a complete gentleman and is great with handling kids(Sunoo told you).

Sunoo broke up with him the same day he applied for the job, he told you all about it. Telling you that Riki was having a hard time with his sexuality, he explained that he suddenly just became different.

it was very clear to you that Sunoo was into guys. Days passed by after he told you about his situation, you tried your best not fall for him, but nothing worked. He was one of the people you let in your life, the one who you run to when family problems strike you.

befriending him wasnt hard, but pushing your feelings was. This was wrong. It feels like your disrespecting his choice when it comes to choosing the gender he loves. So to avoid it, you meet up with another guy, Choi Beomgyu.

Varsity player, top of his class, and graduated in computer engineering. You love him and he loves you, both of you saw each other in one of the booths at your university.

He took a liking in you when you bumped into him again but at the library, asked you about your hobbies and thats when you started to date.

He graduated first leaving you in college for one more year, you told sunoo about him.

Sunoo has became your ride or die ever since you first laid your eyes on him. It has been 3 years since you were introduced to him in work, you met beomgyu a year later.

a buzzed interrupted your thoughts, glancing at the phone in between your hands, you held it up to meet your gaze as your eyes landed on Sunoo's birthday greetings, no beomgyu in sight.. Weird. Beomgyu always greets you midnight sharp, but tonight there was no signs of him in your message list.

Your fingers grazed your keyboard, thanking sunoo and agreeing on hanging out with him later in the morning.

1:26 AM(AUGUST 7). Still no signs of beomgyu, refreshing your feed to make sure, you shook away the thoughts, maybe he was just busy with work? I mean he doesn't really have to greet you every midnight on your birthday but a small part of you still ached.

Sighing as you plopped on your bed, placing the covers on top of your body while still gripping your phone. The gentle draft of air coming from your fan made you shiver as you buried yourself under the covers.

'Maybe when I wake up, he will be here.' A single thought remained in your mind with hope and lingering, you haven't seen your boyfriend in 2 weeks.

morning wasn’t any different, you woke up and did your usual routines, take a shower, and prepare for work.

locking your front door as you embrace the chilly ambiance of the after rain, smell of dry soil from plants and damp musty earthy scent that came from wood.

your shoes squelching each step of the pathway, as your hair swayed with the sudden air.

digging in your pockets, your hand suddenly feeling the pointy object as you grabbed it, unlocking the front door of your workplace, and pushing the glass door open.

fragrance from flowers waft your nostrils, as you flip the sign to ‘open’. Going in the back, you wore your designated apron, your name in soft font at the other side of your chest, and a floral pattern below on the skirt level.

No signs of your boyfriend. No messages, no visit, no beomgyu.

you dozed off while wiping the counter while the spray was in your other hand. It doesn’t feel like it’s your birthday, it feels like just another ordinary day.

“Goodmorning Y/n!” A cheerful voice came while the door was pushed opened. “Happy Birthdayyy Jjokkomi!!” Sunoo’s voice bloomed as he greeted you with a side hug, bag still hanging loose on his side, clothes still neat.

chuckling as you patted his head while he was still gripping on to you like a lost koala. “Thank you Sun” he unclipped himself off of you, slightly frowning. “Why do u seem dull? is there something wrong?”

you continued wiping the counter, as he looked at you. “Beomgyu must have forgotten my birthday..” it came out of your mouth in a raspy tone, almost as if you were on the verge of breaking down.

Sunoo sighed walking away to hang his bag on the back, glancing from behind you, he reappeared while softly untying the knots on his apron, his focus on his fumbling hands as he opened his mouth to say something. “Forgotten is a strong word Y/nie, maybe he just.. i dunno like..” his voice trailed into a mumble, while still untying the cloth.

“Forget, forgot, he forgotten Sunoo I swear!” you cut him off, while bringing your focus on the counter, your hand was burning through the sensation of the towel being in your hand for the past 20 minutes, counter was sharply clean, the lavender scent of the spray casually dried itself.

he managed to get the knot out as he pulled the long ties behind his back, tightening it to make it secure, he sprayed alcohol on his hand as he rubbed it making his way beside you. “You know, you shouldn’t be to hard on yourself. It’s your birthday, you deserve a break too.” he responded, his eyes glistening with worry as he placed his hands beside yours on top of the table.

you stared back at him, eyes glossy, hair slightly damp, breathing much slower, as you finally stammered, “You’re right.. Im sorry, I just feel so worn out...” looking down at your feet as your hands dropped to the side, spray and towel in both hands, he watched every move you made as he only chuckled, “Don’t apologies silly-“ he opened one of the drawers below the counter as he grabbed newspapers. “Come on let’s start wrapping” he continued with a warm smile.

you look up at him and flashed a wry one, your feet already moving to the supply room to return the cleaning supplies.

12:25 PM. Lunch break, still no message from Beomgyu, not even a presence. You were devastated but lucky for you, Sunoo dragged you in one of his favorite hangout spots, a small cafe with brown carved walls, automatic sliding doors, and the fun part is, its a pet cafe! you get to pet dogs, different types.

the aroma of coffee being grilled was the first thing u noticed when you first entered, Sunoo brought out his wallet, as you fidgeted the belt loops of your pants, something feels wrong.

the cashier smiled at the both of you, a man probably years older than you guys? he has dark brown locks and a sharp jawline, his smile was kinda boxy type.

Sunoo ordered first as your eyes examined every drink and pastry on the digital menu board. “What about you Ms?” a velvety voice brought you back as you were close to spacing out.

the cashier named Kim Taehyung, stared at you as his hands rested above the monitor, you stayed quiet as you stared back at him, Sunoo noticed the tension as he nudged you by his elbow.

“oh uhm- I’ll be getting the uh- Café de Olla.” you mutter, as you quickly grabbed your wallet from your bag, the cashier ringed your order still smiling at you, Sunoo couldnt help looking in between you and the guy, he stopped you as he gave his card.

“what.. are you- are you sure? I can pay I swear.”

“its my treat, its your birthday so no biggy.”

he always does that, make reasons, even the smallest reasons just to pay for your food, EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

“happy birthday, gave you a discount to brighten you up” he smiled happily as his gaze looked between you and the monitor, you thanked him happily, as the guy beside you only tightened his grip as his eyes glared daggers.

the receipt was printed out as he gave you, your hands were about to grab it until Sunoo snatched it and grab your hand to one of the chairs, leaving the cashier frowning, dumbfounded.

you were blabbering about something as Sunoo glanced at the receipt, he guessed it right as the guy Taehyung wrote his number at the back of the paper, he crumpled it and shoved it inside his sling bag.

as the drinks came, you thanked your best friend and started to talk about something else. No you didn’t bring up Beomgyu, not even once.

Sunoo listened persistently as he kept adding jokes make you both laugh uncontrollably.

the main door opened again with a soft, smooth woosh, making you both glance up, a big mistake.

it was Beomgyu and a girl.. his arm was hanging loosely around her arm, they were both laughing about something, as one of his hand intertwined with hers.

you froze, you couldn’t stop the tears from pouring as your grip from the cup loosened, your legs feels like jelly, as your throat feels like it was choking on unsaid words.

Sunoo on the other side was raging, he was raging mad the second his eyes landed on the two figures, he didn’t think, he doesn’t need to. He made his way out of the booth you guys were in, you called for him as his mind was blurry.

Beomgyu saw him as the arm draped over the girl dropped to his side, he was about to greet Sunoo when a fist met his face, he stumbled backwards, instinctively touching his face in pain, “wha- what the fuck is your problem dude!”

the girl he was with helped him up checking his face for brutal injuries, Sunoo slightly smirked in satisfaction as he opened his mouth to say something. “Do you really have to do this? on your girlfriends birthday? what kind of a asshole are you?”

Beomgyu was stunned as his eyes looked over behind Sunoo’s to see you sprinting forward, eyes puffy and mouth quivering.

“And you-“ His eyes landed on the blonde hair beside Beomgyu, “do you bitch on taken men for a living with your shein outfit? come on give me a break.” She gasped bringing a hand to her chest.

your hand grasped on his arm, an invitation to leave as you made your way to the main door.

“wait- baby please- im sorry-“ beomgyu reasoned as you only ignored him, they both argued inside the cafe as the staffs demanded them to leave.

you were 2 minutes away from the shop as you stopped mid track, “You dont have to do that, you know..” you glanced up at him examining his face for bruises. “I do actually, cause I know you will just drag me out of there and let it all slide. Know your self worth Y/N.” he was dead serious, not even using the nickname he made for you.

you sighed as you blinked through the new tears forming in your eyes, lashes fluttering as you looked away. “I got you don’t worry, you will always have me.” he smiled warmly, taking your hands in his soothing it slowly, as if giving you a chance to pull away but you gave in his touch, letting a small smile form from your lips.

you both entered the shop to see a couple of customers observing the flowers, your other co worker, Daniel, was wrapping something as his eyes dropped to the both of you.

“so glad you guys are back, a customer was asking if we had purple oranges? do we even sell an orange plant?” his brows furrowed as he fumbled with the tape dispenser, you quietly chuckled as Sunoo only stared at you, “I’ll check.” you said putting your apron back again.

They both nodded, as Daniel cleared his throat, “So.. you and y/n?” he blurted out as Sunoo looked at him wide eyes, “bitch what?! no way, im into guys remember? theres no way..” he quickly answered, as daniel looked at him curious. “that was fishy but alright alright, no need to get defensive.”

Sunoo rolled his eyes and grabbed a watering can to water some dried plants, he was humming a tune not noticing the presence beside him, the familiar scent of strawberries mixed with air conditioning made him turn his head, seeing his ex boyfriend Riki.

“hello love” riki called him out pretending to look for some flowers, “the fuck are you doing here hoe?”

“hoe? thats one way to put it.” the taller and much broader guy laughed as his eyes crinkled teasingly.

“yeah for some guy who preferred work over his own boyfriend.” Sunoo said sharply as his foxy eyes glared daggers on the teasing remarks.

“besides, I found someone much better than you.” his tongue clicked, and thats when you suddenly came through the back door, wiping the tears you shed when you were alone, as you held the silver scissors.

you walked beside sunoo, focused on the sharp thing on your hands as your mouth opened, “hey sun how does this cut in triangular shapes-“ looking up to see the men staring deeply into eachother. “again..” you trailed

“hey baby” sunoo’s call made you snap your head towards him, eyes widen for a second until you realized what was going on.

his hand slid down your waist pressing you firmly against his body, as heat creeped from your neck, suddenly feeling like your clothes were to tight. The customers minded their own business, as Daniel had his mouth open wide while the tape fell from his grip.

“a woman? seriously? have you got no more boytoy that you settled with a filthy girl?” he scoffed, looking away as he dishevel his hair, straightening his posture.

“filthy girl? you literally look like a temu copy of the that woman in squid game..” you mumbled as your fingers made its way to the folded hem at the bottom of his long sleeve.

“what my girl said.” Sunoo grinned, Riki was fuming badly that you can see smoke coming out of his ears, he snuck his middle finger and stormed out of the store, bumping into someone as he apologized rapidly.

“so about this?” you started as your eyes went down the metal piece, his hand lingered as he dropped his hand on your waist, while he continued watering, “show me.” you nodded as you went beside him, focusing on the question more than the ghostly touch of his fingertips gripped on your side.

8:02 PM the bus dropped you at your place, opening the door as you suddenly collapsed at the floor, stuff scattered as your bag fell down your shoulder.

you sob uncontrollably, hands clenching your knees, the silence of the empty apartment suffocating you.

It was your birthday. A day that was supposed to mean something, yet the only thing you had to show for it was a shattered heart and a relationship built out of mutual panic. Every corner of the room felt like a reminder of what was missing. Your father’s sudden disappearance years ago had left the house cracked, and your mother’s breakdown had shattered the rest. You had spent your entire life trying to glue the pieces back together, holding onto Beomgyu like he was the anchor keeping you from drifting into the dark.

But he wasn't an anchor. He was just another person who walked away while you weren't looking, as if you were just a plant that he can leave unwatered.

Two weeks of silence. Two weeks of staring at a blank screen, wondering what was happening between the two of you, only to find him laughing in a cafe with someone else. The image burned behind your eyelids every time you blinked—his smile, the way he looked at her, the complete absence of regret.

Your chest aches so deeply it feels physical, a hollow, crushing weight that makes it hard to pull air into your lungs. You look around the quiet room, the exhaustion of fighting through every single day finally catching up to you. You are just so tired. Tired of being the one left behind, tired of pretending to be okay for the sake of the flower shop, and tired of feeling entirely invisible in your own life.

You pull your knees closer to your chest, burying your face in your arms as the tears continue to blur your vision, wishing more than anything that you could just turn off the noise in your head.

‘do it.’ a burning whisper echoed in your mind, eyes shut tight as you tried to calm down, fingers pinching on any part of your skin to make u remember that, this— this is all real, and no matter what you do, you can never escape the hunting whispers of the deadly desire burned deep in your mind.

standing up, not even bothering to clean up the mess you made, shoes left untied on the ground as you were left wearing your socks, the fabric of your socks brushing against the wood grains.

your bedroom door was wide open, walking in with a hunched back, your hair was a ruined, static halo, individual strands clinging to your damp cheeks and sticking to the tears drying on your neck, face glistening with tears as sweat beads formed on your forehead.

you grabbed a chair dragging it across the room, the heavy wooden legs caught against the floorboards, letting out a sharp, shuddering screech that echoed off the empty walls.

a hidden rope that was below your bed was now in your palms, as you clenched onto it like it was your life support, not knowing it can be the one to take yours away.

you were about to do it, you were gonna do it, until you remembered your bestfriend. What will he think? waking up in a random morning to find out you aren’t here anymore?

the guilt stayed as a lump in your throat, as you shoved the rope away, your eyes started to blur with a fresh wave of tears, the harsh reality of what you almost did finally crashing down on you.

Your hands shook violently as you scrambled away from the rope, pulling your knees tightly against your chest as ragged, breathless gasps filled the quiet room. You wept out of pure panic and exhaustion, the guilt tearing through your chest—until a sudden, sharp buzz from your phone shattered the silence.

The screen illuminated the dark floorboards, displaying a notification that made your breath hitch. It was a text from Sunoo

Sun☀️😛: Are you home safe?

Sun☀️😛:typing…

Sun☀️😛:Make sure you eat some of that birthday cake I got you, okay?

Looking at his name through your blurred vision, the knot in your throat tightened, but the terrifying urge completely vanished. You weren't invisible. Even in the dark, he was still reaching out to hold you here.

you hesitated to reply but did, slowly choosing your words properly, as your fingers hovered the keyboard, sight still slightly blurred.

Yeah, Thank you Sun.

Sun☀️😛:You’re still awake? girl go get that beauty sleep you BADLY need, xoxo.

Alr Goodnight…

closing your phone, as you stared at your own reflection in the black screen. What has gotten into you?

you were so close to loosing it, you wished you can end it all easily but when Sunoo entered your life and never left, it feels like he was your own personal savior.

In a world that constantly tried to pull you up by the roots and discard you, Sunoo was the only soil that held you firm.

You had spent so long adapting to the dark—learning to grow in the heavy shadows of a broken home and a father who walked away. You truly believed you were a plant that didn't need the sun anymore, perfectly content with withering in secret.

But Sunoo was an undeniable, stubborn light. No matter how deep into the dirt you tried to sink, he would stretch his warmth out until it reached your coldest corners, anchoring you back to the earth and forcing you to face another day.

You couldn’t bring yourself to step into the dark permanently, not when he was working so hard to keep you alive in the light.

The room was pitch black until the clouds parted, allowing a pool of pale, watery light to spill quietly onto the floor. The dusty floorboards below you was imprinting dirt on your uniform, as the silence flooded over your room, gently filling every space.

your eyes were tired, emptiness and hopeless filled it, you rub your eyes yawning quietly, as you sat at the floor, back against the soft, comfy mattress of your bed.

you fell asleep holding your phone, the warm device gripped into your sweaty palms, the rope tangled on-top of a wooden chair, your bedroom door wide open, as the stuff scattered on the floor was visible.

11:51 AM(AUGUST 21) “you okay? you seem really down today Jjokkomi..” Sunoo’s melodic voice rang through your ears like a lullaby luring you to sleep, he was following you all day asking why you were so gloomy, considering what happened 2 weeks ago with beomgyu..

“im fine sun, cut me some slack.” you said, ringing a customers bouquets, hand automatically waiting at the edge for the receipt as you hand it over. “hmm..” you heard him mumble, ignoring him as you went to wrap something up, mind completely focused on carefully wrapping that you didn’t notice the mischievous presence behind you.

a pair of arms locked around your waist, as he buried his head on your neck, sniffing your scent while ruffling his hair on your bare skin.

you tried ignoring the forming smile on your lips as well as the warmth on your cheeks. This doesn’t feel to bad, its been weeks since u felt a nice warm hug.

sniff “wow you smell really—” sniff “good~” Sunoo muttered while still craning on your neck, you giggled, “yeah more like sweat” he shook his head as he moved away looking at you, “No no no- you smell like… like Water Lilies”

you stared at him, observing his posture, his wrinkled long sleeve, apron filled with dirt, and his black hair styled amazingly as if he had his own personal stylist.

he was talking about something but every sound he made was blurred, as if he was being censored by your mind. You couldn’t help but look up at his face to admire his plump pinkish lips, his eyes that look like they can kill any second.

a hand waved on your face snapping you surprisingly, “heeeellllllooooooo— earth to Y/nnnn” he waved continuously, as you grabbed his wrist mid wave, strong enough to keep him firm but not hurt. “aishh.. you look like your swatting away a fly infront of my face”

“HOE— I didnt know you have such a strong grip” he was wriggling his wrist out, making you laugh softly, you like teasing Sunoo, every single time you have the chance.

playful insults, light pinching and smacks were your love language with him, even Daniel had to pull you two apart trying not to interfere.

the feelings you have kept and treasured for Sunoo slowly faded like dust when Beomgyu came into your life, abandoning and shutting those feelings down as you see him everyday.

but right now, all you wanna do was, be with him

tell him that he matters and you will do everything just to keep him safe, despite your emotional well being.

the chaos was disrupted when the bell above the door jingled and started to sway, indicating a customer arrived.

the three of you pretended like nothing happened, cleaning and wiping spots that was already clean.

“Hey, I know you,” the customer said, dropping the reusable bag onto the counter, his eyes wide. He pointed a finger slightly. “You’re the one who ordered that complicated coffee at Vante Coffee last week. The barista, Taehyung was totally flirting with you! He even gave you his employee discount, right?”

You froze, the cleaning rag dropping from your hand. You remembered the discount, yes, but you had assumed he was just being polite. “Taehyung?” you repeated, your voice a faint squeak.

Behind you, the sound of Sunoo violently snapping a pair of shears shut echoed like a gunshot. He stared at the barista, his jaw tight. “You mean the cashier who served our order?”

“Yeah!" the barista replied brightly, oblivious to the fact he was arming Sunoo with emotional artillery. "Taehyung doesn't usually pay attention to anyone, but he actually commented on your order when you left. Said you were ‘refreshingly unbothered’ considering your order was very rare.”

He glanced directly at you, leaning conspiratorially over the counter. "He said he gave you his number, right? Wrote it on your coffee receipt when you paid? Did you use it?"

Your world tilt on its axis. His number? You hadn't even noticed. Behind you, the sound of Sunoo’s pruning shears clicking was replaced by a deafening silence. It was a silence that felt heavier and more suffocating than the entire chaotic afternoon combined.

“I didnt noticed.. my friend Sunoo had the receipt, right Sun?” you glance behind you to see his neutral expression, snapping his attention back at you as he spoke, “huh?- oh yeah- well I didnt notice, pretty sure there was no number..” hands beside him started soothing his pants in order to calm down, why was he acting like this?

He is just your bestfriend, why is he trying to get every man out of your way?

the customer looked at him suspiciously as he clicked his tongue, “okay.. so anyways, I was planning on buying tulips go surprise my mom, do you guys have some?” he changed the topic and started walking on the other direction, you nodding as you followed, leaving Sunoo thinking as he sprayed water on the plants multiple times even causing some of the pots to flood water.

‘this is all wrong.. im not supposed to like girls.’

Daniel saw the tension as he was cutting out the thorns in the roses, and only shook his head in disbelief, just two best-friends still pretending not to care about each other deeply.

Time is running like the sand in an hourglass—just when you think it’s running out, you flip it over and realize every moment is a chance to start fresh

03:47 AM(OCTOBER 6) You rubbed your eyes trying to get the sleep dust off, phone in one hand rereading Sunoo’s message.. ‘Its 3am what is he on..’

Sun☀️😛: Missed call

Sun☀️😛:Hey.. Im sorry to wake you up, I just badly need to see you rn.. meet me at the convenience store.. xoxo walk safe:3

Slipping on your slippers, you looked over at your table to see the ashtray with dozens of cigarette buts, tissues scattered stained with a dark, rust-colored blotch.

You pulled a hoodie down your head, Beomgyu’s old hoodie, to cover the fresh uneven lines carved in your wrist, a reminder that life was exceptionally cruel.

you bent down to tie your shoe laces as you grab your keys.

it has been 2 months since your birthday, life was still the same but you realised that you were better off without Beomgyu, you already have your bestfriend Sunoo, what else can u ask for?

the air outside was chilly, not cold enough to send shivers down your spine but cold enough to not make you uncomfortable.

passing down the convenience store down the road, you saw Sunoo sitting inside as he waved at you to come in.

pushing the door with all your might as you stepped in, inhaling the mixed scents of noodles, coffee, and nicotine.

you walked between the shelves as you took a seat. Glancing up at the boy beside you, his posture was still the same, but he looked really messy..

his hair was scattered as his forehead had beads of sweat, sleeping clothes not worn properly that one of the buttons were undone, face was pale and chapped lips.

“Are you okay Sun?” you broke the silence, examining his state as he only looked at the table.

“I had a bad dream.” he started still not looking at you

“what kind of dream?”

“a dream were you died.”

the background seemed to have been muted as your whole world paused. The times you attempted made you sick, it felt like you were gonna throw up.

all the guilt and exhaustion drained out of you as your hand creeped its way slowly on the table, reaching out for his.

you held it gently and started soothing circles using your thumb. “Im not going anywhere, I promise Sun.”

he finally looked up and you saw his eyes were glossy as a tear dropped followed by another as he started crying, he broke and brought you into a tight, desperate hug.

“I love you.” he mumbled while still sobbing in your neck, you were caught of guard by the sudden words as you patted his back softly.

“I love you more” pinching and smacking each-other wasn’t just your love language, you also share deep meaningful talks with Sunoo, thats how great of a best friend he is.

Sunoo pulled back just enough to look you in the eyes, his grip tightening on your shoulders. "No," he breathed, his voice cracking. "I love you... as in I love you.. Im sorry I couldn’t do this anymore.”

The words hung heavily in the air between you, and for a moment, the world felt entirely still. The realization hit you like a sudden wave, making your chest tighten. Not as a best friend. Romantically. Your mind raced as you looked at his tear-stained face—knowing everything he had been through, knowing how he had always identified, and suddenly feeling the sheer gravity of what he was risking by telling you this.

"Sun.." you whispered, your voice failing you. "But you... I thought you were—"

"Gay?" Sunoo cut in softly, a sad, self-deprecating smile brushing his lips as fresh tears pooled in his eyes. He let out a shaky breath, his hands sliding down from your shoulders to gently cup yours.

"I am, but I thought," he confessed, his voice barely above a whisper. "I spent so much time trying to figure myself out, labeling what I felt, thinking I had it all mapped out. I thought being into guys meant my heart was completely closed off to women. But then there's you. The universe kept throwing us together, and no matter how hard I tried to deny it or fit myself into a box, my heart wouldn't listen."

He squeezed your hands, his gaze fierce and desperate. "Loving men doesn't change how deeply, completely, and irrevocably I have fallen for you. You are my exception, or maybe you're just my rule. All I know is that what I feel for you is real, and it’s louder than any label I've ever given myself."

you stared at him wide eyes, unable to form proper sentences. “And also… if your worried about our friendship, I still see you as my bestfriend—“ he paused, “just more special.”

your throat started to hurt as you hugged him again, warm tears ran your face while you buried it more deeply into his neck, feeling like you were gonna loose him.

“Ive liked you too ever since you step into that flower shop.” you chuckled wiping your tears looking up at him, he flashed you a bright smile, reaching up into his eyes.

thats when you realised

That maybe, there is something or someone worth living for.

6:30 AM(OCTOBER 12) “really sun?…its like 6:30 in the mornihhng..” you answered, eyes rapidly blinking due to sleepiness, voice still raspy, as you covered your mouth to yawn.

Sunoo here, pulled you from your bed to go with him in a morning walk, a fucking morning walk.

“You need to radiate yourself with some vitamin C girl!”

“its vitamin D..” you mumbled grabbing a brush to untangle your hair, shirt still tucked in your pajamas.

“vitamin C or D whatever! you need to see some morning sun sometimes” he said crossing his arms, he was wearing a fine-knit, dusty rose cardigan that fit him perfectly. It wasn't bulky—instead, the soft fabric draped elegantly over his shoulders, catching the morning light.

Sunoo looked breathtaking.

“can you hurry your ass? I don’t have all morning for this, we need to get to work in 8” he hissed as his eyes rolled as if it was gonna pop out of his eye sockets.

“yeah- yeah yeah no need to get so feisty.” you said lowering your tone as you applied sunscreen, dabbing it softly to make your skin lessen its visible pores.

he started scrolling on his phone while you slip on a thin mint green jacket pairing it with some easy to wear sandals.

hand about to open the drawer below your vanity to grab your hair tie, you saw blades inside a pile of paper.

your breath hitched, sending a jolt of pure panic through you. Without a second thought you closed it shut, hand still pressed flat on the plastic.

Sunoo looked at your reflection meeting your reaction, “are you okay babe? you look like you saw a ghost?” you nodded continuously, gulping down the saliva that was forming in your mouth.

“OH— yeah im fine— I thought I saw a spider— or a insect I think..” reassuring him, as you continued brushing your hair, deciding to leave it like that.

“SPIDER? GOSH WHERE—“ he quickly reacted dragging you out of the chair, hugging you tightly.

your face was crushed onto his chest as you lifted your head to inhale fresh air, “THERES NO SPIDER SUN— LET GO OF ME PLEASE” he laughed nervously as he let you go, “You were so close to crushing me to death, you know?”

“well you’re alive aren’t you?” gosh he was smirking, he was always so fast with his remarks, especially when things escalated between you after the convenience store, you weren’t together but something more than best friends now.

“blah blah, lets go..” you said smacking his arm lightly as your sandals clicks each step you took.

he only snickered behind you, following you to the door.

10:02 AM Daniel walked in holding crates of flowers as he laid them on the large table, letting it down with a loud clank, as the table wobbled at the sudden drop. “I am so excited so show you guys the new delivery!”

you stared at him and back to the crates, he reached behind him to grab the towel and wipe his face, “new flowers? again? didn’t we just received three last week?”

“uhm, well they said these ones are extraordinary and very rare to see in flower shops.” he said putting emphasis on rare, as he pressed his hand on of the crates. “Call your loverboy please”

you sighed pressing a hand to your temples, “Sun! Daniel wants you!”

“be right there bitches!” cluttering noises echoed as he came running, the older man beside you only let out a loud sigh as he opened the crate.

you three bent down to look at the small flowers that has tiny beads of water running down, inhaling the smell as you looked at Sunoo who looks dreamy. “Thats what you smell like Y/nieee you smell like water lilies! smell of fresh nature” he giggled as you only shook your head.

“okay enough of that Sunoo, carry some of those crates and bring it with me at the back.” Daniel said, as he grunted carrying 3 stacks all at once.

12:49 AM(OCTOBER 14) “Baby what are we doing?” you lingered beside him, kicking some stones on the ground. “I wanted to go to the playground with you—I couldn’t sleep..” he shivered, other hand adjusting his sweater.

your fingers were intertwined with him as you started swinging it playfully, when you saw Sunoo at your doorstep asking you to tag along you didn’t hesitate, you knew something was wrong.

“having nightmares again Sun?” glancing only to see him nod once, your gaze turn to the road ahead.

“I kept dreaming about me loosing you..” he started, as you both arrived at the park. Dim lights and benches, you dragged him towards the swing as you sat

your eyes focused on him, asking him to continue, he took a swing softly as he suddenly stopped. “It was like— different versions of us, and it always ends the same way..” he swallowed a lump looking at you with teary eyes, as the wind gushed his wavy, long hair.

“me dying? Gosh, Sunoo I would rather eat a dead mice than leave you.” you get up the swing and kneeled infront of him, looking at him straight in the eye. “Baby you know I love you, right?”

taking his hands on yours as you massaged it gently, causing his shoulders to lessen its tension as he started calming down

he suddenly went closer and grab your jaw to close the gap, a soft smooth kiss, your first ever kiss with him since you both got together.

sure you kissed him many times, but on the cheek, never on the lips. You both knew when the both of you are now comfortable with each other you’ll do it.

you just never expected it to be in a playground, swinging on swims and talking about some silly dreams.

dropping his hand on his lap as you kissed him back, fingers tangled into his hair as you deepened it, you sat on the ground as he followed you kissing you momentarily, savoring every moment.

your tongue slid past his lips, a soft, breathless swipe that sent a jolt straight to your chest. Sunoo let out a quiet, muffled sigh into the kiss, his grip tightening as he met you halfway. It was sweet and dizzying, a beautiful tangle of warmth and soft gasps for air.

By the time he tilted his head to deepen the angle, you were completely lost in the taste of him, your fingers curling tighter into the soft strands of his hair.

his fingers hovered your pajamas as he held one of your thighs, you whimpered when it gets lower any second and now he was circling the damp cloth.

“nghh—baby agh—“you muttered into the kiss as he shushed you and started biting your lip softly, as you moaned, “baby- we cant- do this here-“ you spoke as he paused taking his hand off your clothed clit as he stopped kissing you, saliva connecting your mouths as he was in between your thighs.

“well lets go home then lover” he suggested, smirking as he licked his lips, tasting the mixed liquids on it.

he eagerly ran you two back home as he started undressing everything that is clothed and you know what you did

3:57 PM(OCTOBER 18) Phone in your hand as your fingers started typing.

Baby where are you? you’re taking so long

Myprettyboy💕: girl im 3 minutes away.

okay well hurry up I miss you.

Myprettyboy💕:Yes maam🫩

you chuckled closing your messages, you both decided to meet each-other infront of the plaza to eat some sushi in the new restaurant you saw the other day, after what you guys did in the playground..

while waiting for him, you cant but notice a tiny cat crossing the road very slowly, small figure taking each step very careful.

you looked around as you started walking the pedestrians lane to get the cat off the road.

you got it successfully, as you were about to cross the road again a car passed by very fast

‘Thank God the cat wasn’t to heavy, I could have died’ deadly thoughts lingered in your mind as your breathing got heavier and your heartbeat started beating abnormally fast.

a jogging sound came behind you as you looked behind expecting Sunoo, as you were greeted by a sudden pain in the abdomen.

what you didn’t notice when you saved the cat was a robbery on going.

your face dropped as the robber got your bag and ran away, knife still in his hand as you were dropped on the ground, laying on a pool of your own blood.

Many people gasped as you heard them screaming for 911, you could only mutter one word as you started feeling lightheaded. “Sunoo.”

Sunoo was walking, sling bag on draped on his shoulder, a mint green cardigan he owns to match with yours.

as he was about to pull out his phone to call you, he heard shouting as people circled something on the corner of the road.

he looked around, no signs of you

he quickly made his way to the crowd as he looked down, rescuers were checking you for pulse and placing it on the stretcher.

he gasped in shock, it all happened so fast as he pushed himself through, tears already running down his face, he explained that he was your boyfriend as he was rushed inside the ambulance.

he couldn’t answer any of their questions as he looked down at your pale body, white dress he brought for you now covered in crimson red blood, he reached for your hand as he gripped it.

bringing it close to his face as he prayed, he doesn’t believe in God, but thats all what he can think of right now.

He was willing to give up everything if if meant making you safe.

they arrived at the hospital as they rushed you in the emergency room, nurses scattered as they pull him back making him wait outside.

this is torture, all he can think of was waiting with you here but now you were in there fighting for your life.

he sat there shaking, bouncing his leg, hands pressed to eachother.

a nurse passed by with a tray, filled with vitamins or some shit he wasn’t sure, but all he was focused on was the two stems of waterlilies.

everything paused as he started to sob, chest breathing heavily as he started having a meltdown, he suddenly felt an arm on his shoulder, glancing up he saw Daniel, dressed in black.

“Sunoo, it’s her time.”

“D—daniel? fuck— your a grimm reaper?” he said shocked, as he faced him fully. “please im—“ he begged shaking as his face poured more tears, cardigan already ruined as strikes of blood were wiped on it. “im begging— don’t take her please..” he said as he started hiccuping

Daniel looked at him hopeless, as his arm dropped to his side. “There’s nothing I can do Sunoo.” he answered, as Sunoo only shook his head and started to cry more, everything and everyone started moving again as more nurses passed with doctors.

“CODE BLUE—EVERYONE CODE BLUE ON ROOM 289” a doctor said as they all rushed, Sunoo only looked at their figures as they went into your room.

4:20 AM(OCTOBER 21) He stared at your messages, he wished he just told you how much he loves you instead of being sassy.

the hospital contacted your family as they sorted out your funeral, it was gonna be tomorrow.

God, he couldn’t even eat or take a shower just like the old days, all he was thinking about was to be with you.

he quitted his job, started to bed rot all day, only staring at your old messages.

he was an absolute mess, as he started crying again for the sixth time this day.

he wanted to end everything, his life but no, he couldn’t bring himself to do it.

he was too weak.

so with all his strength, he stood up from his bed, put on a hoodie as he was gonna take a walk around his neighborhood to freshen his mind.

he knew that wouldn’t work, but notching else is working if you aren’t here.

as he was greeted by the cold air he pulled on his hood and started walking, he doesnt even feel anything anymore at this point.

he doesn’t know what to feel, pure rage or pure loneliness?

he was about to grab his phone in his pocket as he heard a cat meowing, he turned to the other side of the street to see a white fluffy cat with cyan eyes.

he walked towards it and started petting it, crying even more cause of how much the cat made him remember you

as he was feeling its soft furs it suddenly hissed, looking behind him. He was confused as he heard a gun clocked

“give me your phone.” a strangers voice rang behind him as he was about to stand up and run for his life he just sat there and continuously patted the cat.

“are you fucking dumb or what you dumb fucker?”

Sunoo laughed under his breath, “maybe a mix of both.”

a gun shot echoed the streets, as polices immediately came as neighbors started crying and screaming.

Sunoo’s body layed on the ground, exact same position you were in.

as the cat stayed beside him, purring towards his face sadly, as the cat teared.

he looked at it lifelessly as he mumbled, “Im gonna get her back.”

A soft knock came shuddering the wooden door “Emperor Kim?”

Sunoo groaned in response as he rubbed his eyes, yawning.

“The chancellor, Lady Y/N is waiting for you at the dining table.”

His ears perked up as if he has just won the lotto, quickly hurrying to his closet, “tell— tell her ill be preparing” he remarked, quickly undressing to meet you.

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