#floatin

Yeah gender wise idk where I'm at! Neither she nor they fully fits for me as pronouns but I don't like anything else. Sometimes I call my self a dude/guy in my head, but only ever in the context of "just some guy" and other such things. Black girls/women and bad batch comments I feel like 100% apply to me. I can relate 100% to content about Black womanhood but I genuinely cannot imagine being called a girlfriend?? Or like if someone said "ladies first" to me I'd be like "?????". Can't tell if folks calling me ma'am is strange because I'm suddenly old enough to be treated like an adult who's also a stranger, or because it's a woman thing. I'm a lesbian in a very not womanish way. Send help