#flaps hands

aaaah oh wow hi hello! holy shit aaaah. i’m so glad it resonated, i’d been sitting on that scene for A YEAR i keep saying it because i need you all to know how torturous it was. tim is doing his best to handle things because gerry is actively debilitated, but he really needs some help, too! this recreated the last night he saw danny a little too precisely for him to be even remotely okay, RIP king.

also ADELARD OUR BELOVED. he’s so much fun, i am in love with All of my plans for him, especially his family! it felt really important to incorporate some capacity for silliness alongside not only making mistakes but apologizing for them, too. (i love writing old people as foils for other old people, i guess 🤔)

and g-d i am SO GLAD i decided to make it interactive and just. give it some Texture... like, dekker indenting his letters but gerry not, the fucking emails are my favorite jdhfbjdn Sent from my iPad is the only thing carrying me through. and changing the color of someone’s dialogue when they give a compelled response :-) heehoo. i am a little frog in a wizard hat. and i haven’t read house of leaves, but it’s been recommended like 5 times so i really should get on that! i love... hauntings... much to think about.

people dont mind stimming when youre just flicking around a fidget spinner, but the minute i start flapping my hands or wiggling or making odd sounds, ppl give me looks, and so im incredibly thankful that i can be alone so often and do these things when the urge comes around, instead of suppressing them and making myself extremely uncomfortable and stressed out

i also think being able to stim in peace has gotten me more okay with the idea of stimming, because i’m like.. slowly teaching myself that i dont need to be ashamed and that the opinions of the ppl who judge me for it arent worth anything anyways