#fj thoughts

Like, it's a trauma response, or at least something a traumatised person who learned that his kicked puppy vibe tend to make people take care of himself would do. He feels the loss of power that comes from his upbringing and latch onto the power he can grab, even if it's not totally consciously. That doesn't make him a bad person bc I don't think it comes from maliciousness, but it's definitely a flaw.

Masks are so tied to autism we use it as shorthand for the way we need to adjust ourselves and perform to make other people feel better

Taliesin have spoken in an interview about about how some of the inspiration for Bolaire is depersonalization

He also spoke in multiple places about being essentially in the public eye since he was a toddler, with all the implications that have for forming one's own identity

What absolutely clinched it for me is the scene after he got on Rulius and the play he tried to put on, the idea that since he's struggling with his identity as an individual bc he only knows life through the imitation of others and what does it says about his emotions when all he can do if perform what he experienced looking at others

Bolaire is a wonderful autistic representation. I love his so much. He's a sibling to my soul, in a similar way to Ashton as a person with chronic pain.

You're a blessing to the world, a blessing to the community and we're so lucky to have you among us 💜

May you have many more years of playing games and flirting with your friends and being the most chaotic, charismatic and knowledgeable person in a room.

One the one hand, the sense of satisfaction and completion is immense. I just went through an amazing trip and didn't have to leave my living room. The view was breathtaking.

On the other hand, there is grief. Will I think about it and read it again in the future? Absolutely. But I'm never going to read it for the first time again.

I love fanfics with all of my heart and I accept the grief as part of it.

So if you need me, I'll be here, weeping into my phone about The Iron Bull and Cullen and nightmares and vulnerability and bdsm ethics and friendship and faith and self sacrifice and self harm.

The bracelet Azune used for casting, who did it belong to? I assume his sister but idk

Julia's shadow. What is up with that? I want more details!

The Thimble activation on the box. Why? Who made it act this way and for what purposes?