North Node Leo 8th House/Aquarius 2nd House
Basically I have 4 Fixed Signs on my nodes and honestly, I have a hate-love relationship with it. In my younger days, I despite people who are too stubborn! As a Mutable dominant (Cardinal and Fixed are around 3 dominant wise but Mutable takes the cake with 4), I respect people's ability to adapt, change, and bow down but not because they necessarily admit defeat, it means their ego isn't that all affected and there are other means to achieve success.
Returning to the USA after almost a decade, I noticed that a lot of people are distracted. Im surrounded by people who do not have focus, integrity or intensity. Kinda opposite of my Mutable dominant really. Back at my home country, I was part of a Collectivist society (Americans love to roast Collectivist society but probably jealous because they don't feel as lonely and disconnected as Americans π) but I had Aquarian values of progress and rationality, which many of my countrymen have a hate-love relationship with it too. My family wasn't exactly rich but enough to spend some luxuries and I had pretty much have a stable and structured life, like Taurus
Coming back to the USA, Leo 8th house (Scorpio) is something I need to work on. Instead of standing out as a rational and progressive individual who rebels against the more traditionalist society, I must learn to shine my own heart instead of always looking after the collective. Although US is more relaxed with views of sex than my homeland, the excess and shallowness of sex challenges my 8th house. Leo rules 5th house and is fine with the US culture of casual sex but my 8th house ruler, Scorpio refuses to have sex with just anyone so there's a conflict between me wanting to just hook up anybody I please and being patient to find the partner I can trust with my entirety.
People have told me that I am intense at times but it was hard for me to digest that idea. Perhaps I always been that way. Now it is time to embrace my Fixed rules Nodes. Fixed signs brings intensity, focus, and willpower and since it strongly occupies my Nodes, it is time to remaster my discipline, focus, and intensity!
Thank you for reading! I hope you can learn something from this
P.S. I heard somewhere that Fixed signs are the most horniest but it tends to be overhyped. Although I don't shy away from the realm of sex, I have that strong urge to transmute that energy for productive means. After all, you gotta keep that intensity to be sexy π
