#firstcarnival

I hate it...... I hate having a disability. Last night I took my children to the small carnival that my neighboring town had and it was supposed to be fun.especially considering that it was my youngest child's first carnival and my oldest won three prizes.the looks on their faces said it all.but I have a condition where flashing lights tend to cause seizures and so we couldn't stay there long.i was already feeling the signs of a headache on the way home.i hate it.something that was supposed to be fun can turn into something where my mind is telling me "don't do it ,fat fuck,you will regret it" life is freaking cruel!!!!!!!!!