also canonically it's still like 10 - 12 yrs away but im thinking a lot about ahellia's pregnancy with vanora and all the ways she loves it and hates it at the same time and just this development from a person who cant sit still for 2 mins just constantly at work trying to outrun trauma to someone who feels safe enough to lay down her weaponry long enough to bring a child into the world and to love and be loved by someone
and how doting findral is but as ever lets her do whatever she wants, lets her make all the decisions throughout it all and how happy he is at the idea of having a family after losing his and how good he is at soothing her nerves when it gets too tough for her, when she's frustrated by lack of mobility or feeling useless (despite working in some capacity well into her 3rd trimester) or sick or exhausted, and he's just totally enamored by her glow as if he wasn't already horrifically besotted
and at first they were both nervous about it all but excited; he was worried about being a good father since he never had a father figure in his life and she wasn't sure if she was ready to be a mom, mainly because of the fear of loss, the idea that she wouldn't be able to protect her child, but it's been years since the voidstorm and finally real peace has taken hold so she allows herself to sink into that tenderness and she doesnt regret it, and she reassures him too, says there's no one else she'd rather have at her side, rather have a family with and it heals something in him that's been bothering him for years to know that his child will be loved and cherished by two parents instead of ostracized and denied like his father denied him
idk it's just nice to see her relax and to watch her make this transition and how it ultimately makes her even stronger, and the challenges she faces as a mother elevate her conviction and turn her into a guiding figure instead of the one always being guided; big brother soranar will always be her guide in one way or another but after becoming a mother she feels a new sense of confidence and capability and really thrives and is able to really pass along knowledge to greener rangers both in terms of battle and in personal matters. she's able to pass on the lessons she's learned about love and taking care of yourself instead of grinding yourself down to the bone or beating yourself up over and over about mistakes you've made or things that have passed. and it's just like wow she has grown so much and really begun to thrive as she deserves at that point and it makes me proud
