I wanna talk about my stuff and me, cause it's two am and I don't have anything better to do.

I am gonna say stuff about myself that nobody knows, only the government cause they are hacking this phone.

I'm a female, but I want to identify as a male or just nothing cause I don't know I feel much better if I am called a 'he'.

I have a lot of kinks, not all of them are up my alley, but there are still a lot and I am going to enumerate 3 of them(?):

Ddlg/Ddlb/Mdlg/Mdlb(here I go being genderless again)

Degradation kink (actually call me stupid and worthless haha)

Masochism (I don't know if that's how the kink is called but whatever)

I think I am into every kink except knife play cause I do that myself already

I am actually pan even tho all my friends think I am just bi, but I don't correct them so yeah...

I don't think my family will like me that much if I came with a girl and presenting her as my girlfriend, so I am scared for that shit.

I am 15 and I am going to turn 16 in October and the gift I wanna give myself for 'being an adult for Americans' is going and posting on those cgl match websites and I really wanna have a daddy or mommy, but I don't think anybody will choose me.

I live in a country where English is considered a second language, but not many people know it, so I can't practice my English.

I live in a country in Europe so I am scared that if I fing a caregiver then we would have a ldr, which I am ok with, but still i wanna be somewhat close to them.

I crush on a lot of boys and girls (we know how that went with me and NN), but there is a guy in my classes that I wish he was a daddy, and he has the potential, but I don't think that he actually is into or knows about ddlg/ddlb.

Also my country literally had, a few months ago a talk about if they would accept LGBTQ+ people. Not just marriage, which was never accepted I think, but actually just people with a different sexual orientation living decently in our country. So I am mad about that

I know most of this are about my kinks, mostly cgl, but that's what I am scared that if people know about me, they will hate me.

Alright, so I think that is all I am going to write and ofcourse I vented again, like i usually do.

Byeeeeeeee~💕