littlekitten

I wanna say that there is this guy and he is what i call "actual daddy material'. And not like off he has muscles or some shit, but actually caring and very dominant, sven if he is just 17 yo. He also fucking plays basketball and he is pretty fucking tall like 6' or 185 cm and I'm like 173cm or 5'6 and I love a tall ass boy.

And the thing is that he talks to me, cause i love physics and maths and he is not that good, so he calls me for help with stuff. So one that he comes to me and asks like 'can you help me with understanding this problem?'

And he has this DEEP ass voice, and mind you it was a pretty sad and depressing day and I knew I was so close to get in my headspace. So when i began to explain I started stuttering and he had this lpok on gis face of a combination of confusion and pity.

When I catched up to that shit that I had just spit out, I started to blush and I couldn't take it anymore and I fell into littlespace.

He started like freaking out, cause i was so close to crying (I am most of a crybaby), and then he somehow calmed me down. And I have to usually cry for at least 4 hours before I stop, but he could just click me out of that feeling.

You know that daddy, caring, deep bpice that can put you to sleep and that could exactly melt you. Now he used a voice like that and the whole class I was just a puddle.

🥀Slit my wrists and watch the blood evaporate

I wanna talk about my stuff and me, cause it's two am and I don't have anything better to do.

I am gonna say stuff about myself that nobody knows, only the government cause they are hacking this phone.

I'm a female, but I want to identify as a male or just nothing cause I don't know I feel much better if I am called a 'he'.

I have a lot of kinks, not all of them are up my alley, but there are still a lot and I am going to enumerate 3 of them(?):

Ddlg/Ddlb/Mdlg/Mdlb(here I go being genderless again)

Degradation kink (actually call me stupid and worthless haha)

Masochism (I don't know if that's how the kink is called but whatever)

I think I am into every kink except knife play cause I do that myself already

I am actually pan even tho all my friends think I am just bi, but I don't correct them so yeah...

I don't think my family will like me that much if I came with a girl and presenting her as my girlfriend, so I am scared for that shit.

I am 15 and I am going to turn 16 in October and the gift I wanna give myself for 'being an adult for Americans' is going and posting on those cgl match websites and I really wanna have a daddy or mommy, but I don't think anybody will choose me.

I live in a country where English is considered a second language, but not many people know it, so I can't practice my English.

I live in a country in Europe so I am scared that if I fing a caregiver then we would have a ldr, which I am ok with, but still i wanna be somewhat close to them.

I crush on a lot of boys and girls (we know how that went with me and NN), but there is a guy in my classes that I wish he was a daddy, and he has the potential, but I don't think that he actually is into or knows about ddlg/ddlb.

Also my country literally had, a few months ago a talk about if they would accept LGBTQ+ people. Not just marriage, which was never accepted I think, but actually just people with a different sexual orientation living decently in our country. So I am mad about that

I know most of this are about my kinks, mostly cgl, but that's what I am scared that if people know about me, they will hate me.

Alright, so I think that is all I am going to write and ofcourse I vented again, like i usually do.

Byeeeeeeee~💕

🐌My friend, which helped me with a lot, knows I like this guy who we call NN. I've been crushing on this guy for like a few month (cause I am a creep like that)and this whole time my friend helped me like 'stalk' him, or something.

🐌But now, guess what I find out...My friend also liked NN as much as i did. At first, I thought nothing of it. We were gonna talk about him together and stuff like that, after all, for me, this was only a stupid little crush.

🐌And now, 2 month after my friend told me the NN thing, she is now together with him???

🐌I mean, I know that I didn't do anything to stop them somehow but I thought that my friend would tell me at least. And now, I am sitting here fucking crying my eyes out, cause even if I was ok with them being together, my friend still decided to fuck me up more and started talking behind my back.

🐌And I know that because my cousin, who my friend often talks to, told me that my friend said that 'I was coming for her man' or some bs.

🐌I decided in the end to close this 'relationship ' so here I am crying haha.

🐌Don't I love my life?

🐛And now everybody is thinking what the fuck is this person talking about and why did she decided to post this, but I said this is a venting place for me sooooo....

My friend suggested that I try and do this...

Ok...So, I am looking for friends (cause I lonely haha)and if you wanna talk...idk send a message?

I'm also a little from ddlg/mdlg community if you are also a little and wanna talk.

I also make mistakes cause English is my second language so if you hate that so you know.