I don't expect many people to care, and I don't blame you, however it's time that I focus on myself for the first time in a while. Things are really great right now, I have the most amazing friends and family, all the support in the world, a plan for my future and I just recently found closure. A closure that was four years in the making, but most definitely closure.
I spent four entire years of my life pining over someone who I honestly think could care less about me anymore. Everything that I wrote for personal reasons in those four years was based around him. Countless excerpts, stories and poems, all written with him on my mind, and maybe this will be the last for a while. Nothing will ever change the fact that I was madly in love with him, and no one, not even him can take away the fact that he did indeed love me as well, even if for the briefest of moments, he felt something. He was my whole universe, and if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't even know that you could feel a love that deeply. It was the most amazing of feelings I wouldn't change a thing about it. However, he also taught me to watch over my heart, and to keep myself intact, and to never just forget about who I am. I will always have a place in my heart for him, and no one or nothing will ever be able to change that.
Four years later, I've finally gotten the closure that I needed from him. Which means that for the first time in a while, it's time to focus on what I want. I no longer have to wonder if every waking decision that I make will be okay with him, because it doesn't matter and I've never felt more free.
A lot of exciting things are coming up in my life, like graduation and then transitioning from high school to college and then moving away for my second year of college. It's going to be a whirlwind of change in my life, and I figured that I'd keep a blog of my successes and failures. Maybe years later I'll find this and get to read about what I was like when I was stupid 17 year old, and maybe it'll help open the up the floodgates of memories from my younger years. But anyways, let's see how this goes.
