Daddy Issues
AU: Motorcycle Club AU
“I know that you’ve got daddy issues, and I do too.”
part iii of love songs for ghosts — a multi-au bucky barnes x reader series inspired by music, memory, and the ache of unfinished love.
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You meet him on the worst day of your life.
Which feels dramatic, until you tally the facts:
Your father is dead.
His funeral was this morning.
You’ve just totaled your car trying to outrun the grief.
And now you’re stranded in a one-road town you’ve never heard of, wearing black heels and mascara-streaked rage, with no signal, no cash, and no goddamn idea what to do next.
It’s 6:42PM when your shoe snaps on the gravel outside the only building with a neon sign still glowing.
"STARK’S GARAGE. OPEN LATE."
You limp inside.
And that’s when you meet him.
Grease stains up to his forearms. Dark hair tied back. A black henley that fits like sin.
He’s got a socket wrench in one hand and a cigarette in the other.
And he looks at you like he’s already decided you’re a problem.
“Shop’s closed,” he says.
You blink.
“It says open.”
He jerks his chin toward the door. “Sign’s stuck.”
You cross your arms.
“My car’s dead on the road. I just need help getting it towed.”
“Not a tow company.”
“You have a truck.”
He lifts a brow. “And you’ve got nerve.”
“Do you always treat people like shit, or am I just lucky?”
He smirks.
And God help you—it's attractive.
“Depends if they walk in like they own the place,” he mutters.
You pause.
Take a breath.
“My dad just died,” you say flatly. “I wasn’t trying to own anything. Just trying not to fall apart in the road.”
Something flickers behind his eyes.
He sets the wrench down.
“Keys?”
You blink. “What?”
“Give me your keys. I’ll tow it.”
You hand them over.
His hand brushes yours.
It’s warm. Steady.
You hate how badly you want to feel it again.
The tow takes ten minutes.
He’s silent the whole time.
You watch from the passenger seat of his truck while he hauls your car onto the flatbed with quiet, practiced strength.
Your legs are still shaking.
But your hands are calm.
That doesn’t happen around strangers.
“Engine’s toast,” he says, once you’re back in the garage. “But the body’s fine.”
You nod absently.
He glances at your heels. “You got a place to stay?”
You look away.
“No.”
He sighs.
Wipes his hands on a rag.
“C’mere.”
You follow him to a tiny back office that smells like leather and burnt coffee.
He opens a drawer, pulls out a key.
“There’s a room upstairs. Couch folds out. Shower works. No charge.”
You stare at him.
“Why are you helping me?”
He shrugs. “Everyone’s got a worst day. Seems like you found yours.”
You learn his name later that night.
James Barnes.
But everyone calls him Bucky.
He owns the garage.
Runs a bike club out back.
Drinks his coffee black. Doesn’t talk about his past. Doesn’t ask about yours.
You learn he’s a former soldier.
That he’s not from here.
That he only sleeps three hours at a time.
You learn that his left arm is metal.
And that no one in town asks why.
You stay one night.
Then three.
Then a week.
He lets you work the front desk. Just until your car’s fixed.
But even after it’s running, you don’t leave.
You’re not sure when the town stopped feeling like a layover and started feeling like penance.
But Bucky never asks questions.
Just nods toward the guest room each night.
Leaves black coffee for you each morning.
And teaches you how to rebuild things with your hands instead of your heart.
The first time he touches you, it’s unintentional.
You’re under the hood of a 1970s Chevelle, cursing the seized bolt.
He steps behind you.
Reaches around with one hand to brace the socket.
His other hand settles low on your hip for balance.
You freeze.
So does he.
But he doesn’t move.
You don’t either.
The silence burns.
When he finally steps back, neither of you say a word.
But the air between you has changed.
You start craving it.
Two nights later, you kiss him first.
It’s behind the garage, under a sky cracked open with stars.
You’re leaning against the chain-link fence, laughing about some dumb customer who asked for “tire juice.”
And then you’re kissing.
Hard.
Fast.
Desperate.
His hands grip your waist like he’s afraid you’ll vanish.
Yours twist in his shirt like you’ll drown if you let go.
You don’t make it inside.
He lifts you onto the workbench.
And makes you come with your dress hitched around your thighs and his name on your lips like salvation.
You don’t talk about it.
The next morning, he pours your coffee like usual.
But he watches you longer.
And you let him.
A month passes.
You move your suitcase upstairs.
He doesn’t say anything.
But you catch him smiling at it.
You start calling the guest room our room.
He still won’t sleep next to you.
You let it slide.
You learn his scars by touch, not explanation.
You learn what songs he plays when he’s mad.
You learn that he drinks too much when he dreams of war.
You learn that he loves you long before he says it.
The first time he whispers it, you’re standing in the rain beside his motorcycle.
He tugs your helmet strap gently, eyes fierce.
“If you go,” he murmurs, “don’t bother coming back.”
You blink.
“I’m just going to the store.”
“I mean it,” he says. “You leave for real—you don’t get to take me with you.”
Your heart cracks.
“Buck—”
“I love you,” he says, fierce and low. “But I won’t be abandoned again.”
You reach for him.
Kiss the corner of his mouth.
“I’m not my father,” you whisper.
His voice breaks.
“Neither am I.”
I know that you’ve got daddy issues / And I do too.
He doesn’t talk about his old man much.
Just once.
You find him in the garage late one night, knuckles split, breath ragged.
He tells you about the fists.
The shouting.
The way he learned early that silence was safer than softness.
You hold his hand.
And tell him about the funeral.
The guilt.
The way you still dream of his voice, even if it was never kind.
You sit on the floor of the garage with whiskey between you and pain in your blood.
And when you wake the next morning in his arms, neither of you feels dirty about it.
Just clean.
New.
One night, a stranger rides into town.
Leather cut.
Skull ring.
Looks at you too long.
Bucky watches.
Doesn’t say a word.
Until the man follows you into the back office.
You tell him to leave.
He doesn’t.
And then Bucky is there.
Fists flying.
Voice like thunder.
“You touch her, I break your spine.”
You’ve never seen him that feral.
But you’re not scared.
Because his fury isn’t aimless.
It’s protective.
It’s primal.
It’s love.
Later, he wipes the blood off his knuckles and kisses your palms.
“I won’t lose you,” he murmurs.
“You won’t,” you promise.
But you both know fear isn’t rational.
And love doesn’t always fix what came before.
The club grows.
The town learns to look at you differently.
Less like a stray.
More like something claimed.
You don’t mind.
Because Bucky never cages you.
He just makes sure you know the way home.
One afternoon, you ask him what forever looks like.
He doesn’t flinch.
Just hands you a ring box covered in grease smudges and velvet hope.
You marry him in the back of the garage.
Motor oil on your hands.
Leather jacket over your shoulders.
You kiss him to the roar of his bike and the sound of your own name changed in his mouth.
Years pass.
Your father’s voice fades.
Your old wounds scar.
But your love?
It stays wild.
Like the engines.
Like the man.
Like the version of yourself you found in the wreckage and built new with his hands on your spine.
And if I could change, I would take all the shame away. But you know I can’t.
He never tries to fix you.
And you never try to tame him.
But together?
You’re something holy.
Something rebuilt.
Something real.














