#filed observations

there’s so much of his odd behavior that can be understood and explained if you understand he was barely given any socialization throughout his formative years. hojo ensured that he wasn’t feral as a young child, if only just. but sephiroth did not know how to form connections until he was several years in age, not until he met the turks and came to understand that you were loyal to your partner.

but he wasn’t raised like a normal person. he didn’t have birthday parties and praise for accomplishments. he wasn’t held after nightmares or soothed when he wasn’t feeling well. they didn’t treat him like a child. sephiroth may have been eight years old when they took him from nibelheim to midgar but he was never a child.

children are allowed to make mistakes, to expand their horizons, to grow up and to explore their own boundaries and emotions and more.

he never had that chance. sephiroth, from the time he could walk, was treated solely in the fashion of being molded into a weapon of war. he was tutored in different languages and dialects. he was taught battlefield tactics. he was made to learn strategy. he did not understand anything close to what family is until he was in his teens and he met gillian when angeal and genesis took him to banora.

angeal and genesis mitigated a considerable amount of damage that had been done to sephiroth when he was so young; they taught him so much.

but sephiroth was never a child and it’s so easy to understand him if you comprehend that he just did not grow up the way everyone else had. he was never allowed to do that. he had to ever be strong and powerful and perfect. he didn’t have those little things other children do. he didn’t have a favorite spot ( until he began to learn to cook ) or wild imaginings or anything like that.

he was a weapon.

he is a cuddler. he very much enjoys being close to his partner ( or partners ) and, being touch-starved in general, delights in getting to snuggle up to someone if they’ll allow it. he’s very quiet and does his best not to get in the way but if he’s having a bad day, he may need it. a lot.

he’ll cook for you. cooking is one of the most intimate gestures of affection he can make and while he may cook generalized things as brownies or cookies to share in the office, actually getting a proper meal from him is a significant sign of his affection and attention towards you.

sephiroth is extremely hands on. he just likes being able to play with someone’s hair or their hands or their clothes.

he’s very uncertain with his words and may not verbalize his affection for a person aloud very often, but if you listen close, you’ll find that he says i love you or i adore you very clearly with his actions.

sephiroth’s possessive and it shows. a lot. 

if someone tries to make him jealous or possessive by flirting with someone in front of him and they’re doing it on purpose, one of two things will happen. either he’ll yank his partner off and go find someplace private to fuck them senseless or he will withdraw very harshly from the relationship. the latter tends to happen far, far more than the former. he doesn’t cope with jealousy very well.

it is hard for him to indulge in the idea of anyone wanting to be with him when he’s aware he’s something of an emotional cripple ( though even he doesn’t realize how deep it goes ) and, as such, it often takes someone else pointing things out to him to make him aware of his own emotions.

while not a man willing to give someone the time of day in general, he will drop everything immediately if some emergency comes up with his partner to go to their side.

sephiroth’s very dubious on the idea of having children. be it through traditional means or through adoption, the idea of being a father terrifies him deeply. 

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and another one.

BASICS.

full name. sephiroth. last name redacted. pronunciation.   seff-eh-roth. nickname. seph, sephy, general. gender. male height. 6′ 7″. age. 25 to 35, even 40. zodiac. scorpio. spoken languages. common, wutaian, cetran.

PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS.

hair color. matte silver. nearly knee-length in the back with bangs to his mid-chest. eye color. iridescent sea-green with blue hints in an opalescent shimmer. distinctive vertical slit pupils. skin tone. pale body type. mesomorphic. extremely tall and lean at a glance, but with clearly defined musculature that lends a certain bulk to him. long arms and legs with a more compact torso. accent. none to speak of. it was trained out of him, especially when learning to speak wutaian. voice.  monotonous, smooth, unemotional. clipped and direct in nature. dominant hand.  he favors his left hand when it comes to wielding the masamune. his right handles everything else.  posture. extremely rigid and upright. he stands at attention, even when relaxed. scars. several. scars upon his arms and legs, along his torso and spine, all inflicted by hojo. a much larger and much more noticeable one curls over his right side courtesy of where cloud rammed angeal’s sword through his body. a dark scar on the back of his right shoulder where his wing tends to sprout from. tattoos. one. a prominent 01 on the back of his left hand. piercings. several. his nipples, earrings from time to time, genital piercings. birthmarks. a bruise-like darkness on the back of his right shoulder. most noticeable feature(s). the hair, those eyes, his height, his outfit.

CHILDHOOD.

place of birth. nibelheim hometown. none to speak of. birth weight. 7 lbs, 9 oz. birth height. 18 inches. manner of birth. shinra laboratory underneath the mansion. first words. probably no. or hojo. siblings. none. he is an only child. parents. hojo and lucrecia crescent. parental involvement.  /hysterical laughter.

ahem. none to speak of, in truth.

ADULT LIFE.

occupation.  former General of SOLDIER, First Class. currently occupies his time as a mercenary. current residence. the city of the ancients. close friends. none to speak of anymore. relationship status. varies, depending on timeline. before the nibelheim incident, angeal and genesis. afterwards? he’s single. financial status. working class. but he has a considerable amount of personal wealth he could tap into if he wished. driver’s license. yes. criminal record. no. vices. several. 

SEX & ROMANCE.

sexual orientation. pansexual; reads as ace due to his apparent disinterest. he also has a preference for men over women. romantic orientation. panromantic. reads as aromantic due to being emotionally constipated. preferred emotional role. submissive  | dominant |  switch   preferred sexual role. submissive  |  dominant | switch libido. extremely high. he does not, however, initiate sex outside of being in an established relationship with someone and it takes some prying to get him to finally express such a thing. turn on’s. confidence. intelligence. a nice ass and a great pair of legs.  turn off’s. people in general. lack of hygiene. whimpering submissive personalities.  love language.  sephiroth is not a man who says ‘ i love you ‘ very easily. if he has such emotions towards you, then he will cook for you and constantly so at that. not only that, but he is very prone to being quietly affectionate in terms of wanting to touch that person or those people constantly as if to reassure himself that they’re with him. relationship tendencies. if someone is able to draw sephiroth into a relationship, they will find that he is very easy to please outside of the bedroom. he is quite content to let someone else take charge and to simply be with them. it takes a while for him to settle and grow comfortable with his partner ( or partners ), but once he is, he can be more take charge once he knows what is and isn’t acceptable. don’t be surprised, however, if he may initiate things in an attempt to see how well such things are taken. in the bedroom, however? that’s considerably different.

MISCELLANEOUS.

character’s theme song.  war - poets of the fall hobbies to pass time. working out by way of performing katas and yoga. reading. tending to his chocobo. exploring the lands. finding ways to work with his hands. mental illnesses. depression, C-PTSD, potential undiagnosed eating disorder, haphephobia, insomnia.  physical illnesses. n/a left or right-brained. both. fears. abandonment & loneliness.  self-confidence level. surprisingly low in anything outside of combat. vulnerabilities. several, if you can discover them. primarily his abandonment by angeal & genesis and the nibelheim incident as well. mentions of jenova as well; he doesn’t handle speaking of it very well.

Vanilla Sunday Meme

1. Is your muse a romantic? Do they dream of love and marriage?

once upon a time, yes, sephiroth did dream of love and marriage. he actually had plans, before everything went to shit, to ask genesis and angeal to marry him so they could retire somewhere and open up a family owned shop. he loved the both of them to the point of madness. and that dream died very, very hard within him. it began to crumble in the days after their defection from shin-ra and did not truly begin to wither, however, until news of angeal’s death was brought to him by zack.

it was genesis whom killed it utterly, however, on that fateful day he saw him at the nibelheim reactor.

2. Does your muse steal clothing from their partner?

not very often; sephiroth’s incredibly large and incredibly tall. it’s far more likely that someone will steal clothing from him! he doesn’t mind. but wearing one of his t-shirts is akin to wearing a dress, probably, or a tunic. the benefits of his being close to seven feet tall, y’know.

3. Is your muse comfortable with, or proud of their body? Are they insecure?

in all honesty? sephiroth’s actually very insecure with his body. he bears lingering scars from his time underneath hojo’s scalpel, primarily along the lateral lines of his body; the center of his arms and legs, down his spine and along the front of his torso are where one will find the grooves of those scars. in addition to those, he bears a truly massive scar upon the right side of his torso, situated between the bottom of his rib cage and the iliac crest of his hip. 

that scar is from where cloud rammed the buster sword through his body; the scar’s widest point is along the outer curve of his torso and it is a harsh, ugly thing, twisting in a pink line towards his navel and spine on either side of his torso. 

add on the 01 on the back of his left hand which he can barely stand to look at outside of bathing and he is very uncomfortable with his body. he also finds that people are attracted to his physical appearance first and that doesn’t help his self-image issues when it comes down to it. it’s an odd thing to be discomforted by, he is aware, but sephiroth is not secure in his physical appearance. he knows, logically, that he is very attractive to others. he knows, logically, that he could bend a finger and be covered in attention.

while not a man for bare feet, there is one kink that sephiroth often keeps under wraps barring sharing it with those whom are interested in such a thing. it’s not commonplace, but oh - it definitely is a firm power move on his part to have someone do it for him.

he adores footgear worship. 

sephiroth is not above remaining seated in a chair and nudging his foot under someone’s chin and telling them to clean his boots off with their tongue. he doesn’t expect the full thing, given how high his boots go, but it is something he’s indulged in before and rather enjoyed. sephiroth definitely loves being able to nudge the toe of a boot beneath someone’s chin, to press it to their mouth, to slide it down their chest and stomach. he’s never gone so far as to use his boots in that matter directly, but he isn’t above nudging the toe of his boots into someone’s groin either.

oh. 

and if you really want sephiroth to get going?

be noisy. be loud. be very vocal with your moans and sighs if you’re in bed with him. it’s the quickest and fastest way to get him aroused. a noisy partner ( they don’t have to be loud, per se. just unashamedly vocal. ) is something that he relishes quite a bit.

the more moaning and crying out that someone does when he’s using his hands and fingers and hips, the more that he gets worked up. don’t be afraid to be noisy with him. tell him what you like. a bit of dirty talk is good, but the breathy hiccups of delighted arousal someone makes when he’s going down on them?