Today was the worst spoonie day
And both kids were here. I cried my eyes out all alone because you can’t leave the kids unsupervised. If the girl hears you crying, she starts to cry. No reason other than her mom used to say “daddy made mommy cry, did daddy make you cry too?“
I am in so much freaking pain it’s not even fair. I cried on the floor last night too. Nothing is helping. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. The more I hurt the more I lash out.
I just wanted to practice my ukulele with my bf since I only know 3 cords and l always screw up one but I get mad and yell at him and last night I told him to go away.
with this stupid Fibromyalgia, I basically lost my doctor’s office job, have little money coming in, the money that comes in goes right back out & etc. I can’t get a loan for a house or a car because I have terrible income. Bf can’t get a loan for anything because he has no credit.
 WHY IS EVERYTHING SO HARD!? WHY CAN’T IT ALL JUST BE OVER!!!
Oh, and we still don’t have another place to live. We have time to look, but my anxiety would like us to have a place now.
I hate flipping yelling at people for reasons they can’t understand.
