Guysss... im sorry my blog has kind of gone really badly downhill lately. i just am feeling really overwhelmed with things. school, and not wanting to be there. work. and having money. transferring stores to one that is closer to my house. needing to get out of red deer...... this is the biggest one. I have lived in this small city for my whole life. and not only that but i have lived in the same house my whole life. and i am a person who loves change. so this kills me. i love to explore new places. and there is no where left for me to explore. i hate the routine of this place. people don't leave. and even if they do. they leave two hours away to edmonton or calgary, and they just get sucked back into this shit hole. this town that people come to die in. i need to get away. far away and not come back. i want to cut myself off from people. go across seas and teach english. I am in school for art. Sculpture and Painting. Things i truely love. and i cant even enjoy them because i so badly want out.