#feeling dejected

I wish I could be at a beach somewhere in the south where it's still warm and I can be alone. It's an element I love about cancer season because it's summer where it's hot enough to be near the ocean and have quiet moments to heal yourself. Scorpio season is the most harsh water season. It's like a period of darkness where memories you thought were hidden float to the surface like a dead body in a stagnant pond. You remember all your embarrassing faults and mistakes as the days grow shorter and are shrouded by longer nights so you have more time to waste away in your bed avoiding the cold as you are stuck thinking about all the things you could have done instead of being awful.

I am so good at Not Doing It. I’ve spent the whole day Not Doing It and I don’t know why. I’ve set up the conditions to Do It and I am just Not Doing It

3 months ago i drew like a bunch of sketches and didn't sign my name on them and now i'm regretting it. i didn't think they would get any attention. finally added my name to them now before i drop another piece tomorrow in case more people see them, but it's probably too late. would not be surprised if people took my outlines and colored them in by now. lesson learned to watermark everything, even the pieces you don't think are worth anything

Nobody wants me bad enough to stalk me :(

I really want to skate.