#feathertexts

sookie pouring talbot's guts down the sink, hitting the garbage disposal switch and maniacally laughing

tommy turning into a crocodile and eating his parents dead bodies so that sheriff andy wouldnt catch them

jason getting violated repeatedly whilst being on the brink of death

took the mrt for the 2nd time in my life, to trx

accidentally dropped my phone on the train (loud as fuck)

signed up for german classes at this boujee ass building next to trx

met up and took pictures with Kimberley (we're gonna be going to the same centre now)

took the train back to asia jaya, accidentally dropped my bag on the train (even louder)

went to viviens place at 3.30pm

"men are evil dont trust men" "ok wow you're such a feminist" "yes I am and I'm 6 ft 4" "okay. name a feminist" "uhhhhhhh rosa parks?"

went into the bathroom so he could wash the bowl. i was standing beside him checking my bangs in the reflection. he stood off to the side glancing at me every now and then and smiling

smoked a bowl w vivien but i only smoked like 10% of it. "you have to suck on it" "ummmmm" and we both start laughing

i was playing w a belt (his belt) at him, he flinched, we laughed about it

watched indian sidemen

he said should we watch something and i said lets watch scott pilgrim

he's looking for the site and i start shuffling from left to right (like the dance) \/ /\ \/ /\

he's like wow you can shuffle??? and I'm like yes come here let me show you how

he was getting really embarrassed so i pulled him up anyway and so we were holding both hands while showing him the steps. he kept getting shy because he was messing up here and there and he was like "noooo i cant i look really stupid right now"

we laughed and stumbled and end up w his arms around me hugging me and his face in my neck

"this is so gayyyyyy" - v. *laughing* - me

set up the laptop for the movie and we're on his bed with two pillows propped up behind our heads

when ramona and scott are on their first date he asks if he can play with my hair. he asks what it was like when it was long

i forgot what spurred this ik he said something and i took his hand and held it and he called me gay for it

he was running circles w his thumb on my hand

then at some point he starts kicking me and i keep his leg in a leglock so he stops and that turns into a tussle and he acc cant free himself. at this point he's on top of me and i finally let him win and he flops over to the side again and we're laughing but our legs are still intertwined

he's running his hands through my hair again and I'm looking at him. i forgot what he says but our faces are already so close. so i poke the tip of his nose and give it a peck.

and then he's grinning and going off about it being gay

I'm like what do we do now?

he's like ...we kiss

and I'm like okay but it would be my first time idk if ill do it right and he slike WHAT

asks me repeatedly if I'm ok with this and I'm like yeah its not the end of the world its not

he kisses me and idk what to do with my lips I'm sitting there like a dead fish but eventually it works out my lips soften and i actually start really enjoying it bc he tastes like popcorn

atp he's on top and we gradually start going into tongue territory

he cups my face and starts kissing and biting my neck softly and i absolutely fold like um whimpering and everything that's crazy?????????

now and then he makes me ask to be kissed which is actually crazy like i had to grab his shirt and pull it closer

couple times he's legit just teasing me hovering his lips just fucking one millimeter away from mine and pulling away when i try to bring him in

he asks me where to touch and im like no butt no cooch

at some point i say something rly geeky and he's like youre so cool (sarcasm ofc) and im like bitch that's a microaggressio- and he just takes my face and cuts me off w the kiss

eventually (bc he keeps wanting me "closer" - bitch we're already nose to nose) i move on top and im kissing him and he asks me to kiss and bite his neck so i do

bro he starts WHIMPERING and whispering going "fuuuck ah fuck" again and again. and i can feel him like trembling under me and pulling me closer and closer so i just start gooning on his neck i guess

whimpering devolves into actual moaning and long story short he has a full on hickey now and im proud of it. just learnt something about myself today: i fucking love biting necks im a pleasure dom apparently

whenever id stop he'd whine about me teasing him. at some point i paused and he whispered "doooont doooont stoppppp pleaseeee do it for longer"

he asks me to put my hand under his shirt so i do and its so nice feeling him squirm

we kiss for like an hour straight i think time just flows i have no idea how long its been but we're breathless and exhaling warm. i would just pause and play with his hair and lips and eyebrows in between

and trace soft kisses on his eyelid and cheek (he said "i hate youuuuu i HATE YOU youre making me feel things"), keep my cheek on his cheek

his kisses go from soft exploring to intense with tongue im ngl i dig it a lot a very whole lot

some more mentioned in the whatsapp vms with jayden

at home v texts me saying he wants to be platonic so he doesnt "ruin a perfect thing" and keeps going on about how im the coolest person he's met so far and im an amazing person and how our friendship means the world to him