#fdewb

“I broke. Plain and simple. I. Broke. I sat in a park in Geneva, surrounded by thousands of people, young and old, celebrating their beautiful day off, and I felt more alone than I ever had in my life. All my pain, all my self-doubt, all my insecurities, came to my head. I hated myself. I hated that I hadn’t taken the time to look on a calendar or call ahead, or at least make a plan in some way that could have solved this issue. I hated myself for assuming that of course the museums would be open when I was there. I hated that my friends were eastbound to Rome and my wife was westbound to home and I was in a foreign place with no one to be there for, and no one to be there for me. Though my rational brain was telling me everything was fine and everything would be fine, I couldn’t get past the feeling that I wanted to be anywhere but where I was, that I wanted to be anybody but me”

Jared Padalecki in “Family Don’t End With Blood”

 I can attest to the fact that Jared worked incredibly hard writing his chapter in Family Don’t End With Blood. No one I’ve met can read it without getting emotional. And That? Is good writing. You are a writer, Jared. A good one

Best Line 13x9

This may even be my favorite line of the first half of the season to be honest. Jack is so good. He is not perfect, and he will falter, I’m sure of it. But he is so pure and good. Lucifer is no one to him. Cas, Dean, Sam. They are his family. And we knew it. Jack knew it. But to hear Dean acknowledge it means more to Jack (and me, tbh) than anything else.

Family don’t end with blood. And Team Free Will 2.0 is everything.

A fan complimented Jared on the chapter he wrote in Family Don’t End With Blood, in which he also talks about the importance of asking for and getting help,  and asked if he’d be writing his own book. Jared laughed and said he had enough trouble writing his chapter – it really did take him two years. (But it came out so tremendously powerful, it was totally worth it). Here’s what he said about that process, interrupted in the middle by a hilarious detour. Jensen was complaining that Jared took writing his chapter so seriously that they were on vacation in Turks and Caicos and he strolled out in the morning and there was Jared typing away.

Jared: Yeah that’s what happened, except he was wearing a little man speedo.

Jensen didn’t deny it, instead swaggering around as though he still had one on, much to everyone’s delight.

Jared: He was enjoying it. He was excited. (slaps hand over mouth theatrically)

Jensen: (deadpans) It was hard to hide…

Jared: And I said oh, I didn’t know you had a roll of Certs in your front middle pocket.

The whole exchange was both dirty and hysterical, which is a very good combination indeed. It ended with Jensen saying “it’s a deep pocket with lots of treats” so take that as you will.

I am so very proud and amazed at the courage that it must have taken for Jared to write all that down and so thankful for his bravery.

Although there was much that was so very difficult to read, the importance of Jared’s chapter and the ongoing message and impact of AKF cannot be understated.

Couple of other thoughts that I’ll put under a cut for reasons of spoiling the chapter for anyone who hasn’t read it and wants to wait to hear Jared’s own words and for reasons of the possibly triggering topics discussed (only very briefly but just to be safe).