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The cold never bothered me anyway...

Perhaps it was just his taste buds but Junsu was having a thrill with the new food that was on campus. Most of the time, it was just a simple rice with vegetables. Meat was rare and never really available especially in the small town.  But there was meat all over and he couldn’t help the small excited smile that pulled his lips. It was a normal look but he was nearly salivating over the eloquence of the selection. Chicken and some other stuff sat in pans for them to choose and the smells had his mind running away with the idea of what he wanted, what he would taste. But, as his mind was wondering, the male serving the food wasn’t in such a relaxed nature. Irritation crossed his features, before finally he cleared his throat and caused Junsu’s dark orbs to rip from the food.

Pursing his lips, he pointed at few pieces of food and watched them piled on the plate. It was pretty sight and considering he had nearly scrubbed dishes for food back in the city, this was more worth it. Growing up in the country, the only thing he had was his med training but no one would hire him without a degree. He could volunteer, yes, but it wouldn’t be paid. Of course he volunteered for experience but other than that, he barely could juggle his jobs and school along with a volunteer position. It was a lot on his plate and sometimes, he just wished he could live in his car and not pay for a place he barely went home to.  But, he wanted a sense of belonging and working for his own place gave him a sense of home.

The plate was slid under the glass plane, into his out stretched hands and he couldn’t help but smile once more at the food. Many wouldn’t understand his excitement over a plate of food but then again, many wouldn’t understand hunger. With a gentle nod, he took a gentle step away from the line and shuffled away as he stared at the food. So good. Every day since he had been at the school, he had tried almost all the food in the dining area. It meant, that he had settled in pretty well and yet, he had made no friends as it seemed.

Friends. This didn’t bother him considering, he was used to dealing with the feeling of loneliness that tended to creep up on him. Months of living on his own, he was pretty accustomed to the feeling. Not that he didn’t have girlfriends or the occasional one night stand, but that wasn’t anything special.  Coworkers tried to get his attention, but he really couldn’t focus on them a lot of the time.

{` he smiled happily and nodded. Just about to bring the food to his mouth, he paused, before setting te utensil down again. } I don’t think I’ve seen you around… I’m Taekwoon.

Necromancy was an anarchic power that held no rules or limits except that of the user, should they be willing to explore and toe the edges of a cliff that had no ground. Daehyun was afraid to fall. He preferred the safety of a net, coddled in the arms of solid ground and the knowledge that he would never need to inch his way through darkness and hope for the best with every step that he took. There were too many pitfalls in his road of life to bother wandering off the path in search of new dangers.

However, he knew summoning well enough that his feet fell into the same tracks that he had walked before and he felt safe enough to do so. Which is why he sat on his bed, arranging the needed equipment in front of him. A small knife, a porcelain bowl, scraps of paper, an ink pen. Now all he needed was the actual participant and the possessions that would act as an anchor to the souls that he was pulling back from whichever realm that their souls rested in.

"we fear to trust our wings. we plume and feather them, but dare not throw our weight upon them. we cling too often to the perch."

dear past me,i look at you, i can say that i’ve really missed you. what i once was, what i used to be— a kindhearted and sweet girl who put others above herself, someone who wasn’t so selfish and thought carefully of what she would say before speaking. that girl who was so strong but so alone, nobody to be with her and all her family’s gone, but despite the obstacles, you were still you. the burden was getting heavier day by day, but you still refused to have a cold, black heart you do now.

i can say that i really need you now. you promised me when i’d grow up, i wouldn’t turn out to be the way i am now. you lied to me, i lied to myself in the end and i’m all there is to blame. you are the missing part of me i look for sometimes and the very counterpart of my guise, who i’m really supposed to be but the more i conceal what i feel or who i really am, the more i start to lose myself in the end. pretty much, i’ve been living a lie the whole time. lies.. my life’s always been reflected on lies no matter how honest i want to be or even if i demanded the truth.

don’t you ever wish you had family with you? ever wondered where they are now? what about your sister? i’m still looking for them and i’m working hard on that, it’ll take time but please do bare with me. i will keep your promise in my heart and it’s the reason why i’m going to live.. even if i’m not supposed to, really. one of these days, i’ll be you again and i won’t have to be the cold and bitchy yoon bora who lives under a facade.

i really miss you.

Wings were reserved for angels and birds. The man who he was currently staring at was neither, he carried no sign of heavenly descent nor was he completely covered in feathers, like a true avian. It drew a sense of curiosity from his normally passive frame, dull eyes sharpening to black points of inquisitiveness. Perhaps it was because of the short glimpse, nothing more than a flash of a black plume and air light down that drew his attention, maybe it was because this man was silent and did not speak like the countless of other new kids who seemed to have a never ending stream of words passing their lips and splashing uselessly against each other, each too intent on getting their own say out.