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Abbott 5K before my fifth NYC Marathon day? Sure -- why not?! I took it down to my favorite movement: Sexy pace. Preserving my legs for 26.2 miles of pure excitement, adrenaline and another opportunity to meet people on the course. I don't do this for the medals but I'll admit that I always value my NYC marathon collection. I truly enjoy the people, the running community and the sixth year of celebrating my mobility. You don't know how much of a blessing it is to move just a little bit until you're stripped of a lot. I owe tomorrow to this spirit of mine. She's taken a mental beating some days from others and even herself. The true marathon is my everyday life and when I question basic things, why do they happen and how to overcome the everyday struggle. Lacing up is the most natural thing that I can do. Running fast isn't my desire at the moment if you haven't guessed that by now. Forward movement is always my goal. It doesn't look like most but it's deliberate. I trained all year to preserve my happy. It's a pleasure to be a spectrum on a large rainbow. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #ultimatedirection #selfpropelled #superfithero #plussizeathlete #effyourbeautystandards #liveadventurously (at Central Park, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4Xy0WjHA7N/?igshid=139kvt2xmpcwd

Sometimes you gotta look beyond your dirty ass mirror, dysfunctional bedroom, strike a dope pose and be like "I know I look damn good." Remove all the body politics like weight gains, loss, #bodygoals and all of the other shitty little hashtags that make us cringe. This is a task especially dedicated to underrepresented groups who don't see a positive version of themselves regularly. Channel your inner diva, sexy bro or whatever form of delicious that you view yourself. None of that self demoralizing crap today. There's something in all of us that makes us dope AF. Don't do it for social media unless you're having a hey (insert your pronoun here) hayyy moment; do it for you. Happy Thursday my loves. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #bodyimage #representationmatters #fatgirlmagic #myplussize #honormycurves #lgbtq #lovewhatmatters #loveyourskin #blackwomenaredope #effyourbeautystandards #blackhistorymonth #funsize #celebrateyourself (at Bedford–Stuyvesant, Brooklyn) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8eQ226n-C3/?igshid=1dttttzyck6o4

Boundaries & Negative Self Talk: Yesterday felt like crap because for a half session, it was almost as if I forgot everything learned and my mind started to enter panic mode. Not to belittle anyone here but all of the compliments in the world mean nothing when you cannot say a positive thing to yourself. I took a moment to breathe and be a bit more forgiving to myself. I'm reminding myself that I'm a beginner and some things will feel a little foreign. Patience, absorbing in feedback from coach Morit and self forgiveness in my fuck ups is where I will improve. Knowing my ticks, limitations, goals and boundaries are exceptionally helpful to get out of those dark moments. One of the things that I'm adamant about THIS PARTICULAR part of the journey is not accepting advice from anyone outside of my trainer. I managed to piss a few folks off in inbox because they started to "correct" my form and they might be right. But if a person asks you to respect their struggle and growth, especially if they have someone there to guide them through the journey, your suggestion is a violation. I like to bounce back thoughts to people: Why do you NEED to tell someone something? Is it really for them or is it verbal diarrhea for you to feel like you saved someone from themselves? Do you secretly desire to be admired, heard or are you truly a mentor? Even instructors watch their pupils make mistakes before they correct them and had ample training to not only do so but with tact, compassion, encouragement and knowledge of their client. If I refuse to allow my own dark thoughts to take residence in my brain for too long, I'm certainly not going allow unsolicited advice - correct or not - to play hockey on my training. Certain things aren't negotiable; this is one of them. There's nothing passive about it: When a person state that they don't want your feedback, it's not about you; keep your commentary to yourself or go talk to a wall if it bothers you that much. Not respecting it is concern trolling at its finest. Cheers to day two and learning something about myself in this powerlifting process. Long run today. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #powerlifting #imtraining2019 (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0GY4U0nq89/?igshid=1x9epmeyuzn8g

Nourishment. Endurance. Balance. Acceptance. Peace. My family is my zen. Out of all of the crazy adventures that I embark on, the love of my family provides the most unpredictable, entertaining and rewarding experience that a woman can ask for. We thoroughly enjoyed our beach day in Coney Island as Satan's underbelly deep fried us at 90 to 97 degrees. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters (at Coney Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0JbTZXH2oO/?igshid=frbxzks79pwc

Haven't experimented with dough regularly until the last two days but I'm having fun. This is probably the most carbs that I had in long time and it feels great. I'm not much of carb lover. Since I'm not able to make it to the Finger Lakes 50 Miler, at least I'll be fueled up for my back to back long run. Currently scheduled for a 16 miler and 10 miler. Being home allows me to have much more control over my eating habits. Traveling makes it exceptionally difficult to find healthy, flavorful options without breaking the bank. Although I was able to manage it, there's no place like home. Tonight's Pizza: Chicken, Mushroom & Mixed Green Pizza with Mesclun Salad #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #food #foodie #foodporn #foodslut #pizza #carbs #antiholiday #thursday (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzhMCj2nEY8/?igshid=d1jaayqn1p0g

First race in NYC after a month if traveling for the marathon tour and today was amazing. I am feeling stronger on my feet and the course have me so much life. I spoke with so many people today and exceptionally grateful for every hug and kind word passed on to me. A few days ago, I gave up on trying to find this @eloquii ad in the train station. On my way home, a random stranger says "I just saw you somewhere" and I thought that I hear that a lot. He points to the advertisement video behind me. I might have missed the train but this was epic enough for me. Going home to shower off this funk, possibly treat myself to a pedicure and maybe even find a good spot to hang tonight -- or maybe a nap is good too. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #raceday #nyrrmini10k #eloquii #xoq #sponsoredbysuperfithero (at Columbus Circle) https://www.instagram.com/p/BydK0tGHmyK/?igshid=s46ha3fqq8pq

My muscles cursed me out all day. You're welcome. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #everybodyhappy #blinkfitness #crosstraining #calisthenics #strengthtraining #womenwholift #sponsoredbysuperfithero #plussizeathlete (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxyP8pEnkt7/?igshid=951k9s28o0tp

The Cleveland Marathon 8K was a great experience today. Although the weather was gloomy, it didn't stop all of us on the course from shining. I had the wonderful opportunity to run with my friends and former ambassador buddies and I was able to have a decent shakeout run while pacing my friend on the course. Tomorrow morning might be brutal. The temps are expected to hover around 86 degrees. If I pushed through 105 during the Finger Lakes 50K and the brutal Arizona dry heat that hovered at 105 during my first 100K, I think I can push through tomorrow. I'll be moving smart throughout the course and doing my best to reach the finish line safely. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #ultimatedirection #selfpropelled #plussizeathlete #sponsoredbysuperfithero (at Downtown Cleveland) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxoPX0Mn2Bw/?igshid=mo93kgimcu7u