#swiftwick

Abbott 5K before my fifth NYC Marathon day? Sure -- why not?! I took it down to my favorite movement: Sexy pace. Preserving my legs for 26.2 miles of pure excitement, adrenaline and another opportunity to meet people on the course. I don't do this for the medals but I'll admit that I always value my NYC marathon collection. I truly enjoy the people, the running community and the sixth year of celebrating my mobility. You don't know how much of a blessing it is to move just a little bit until you're stripped of a lot. I owe tomorrow to this spirit of mine. She's taken a mental beating some days from others and even herself. The true marathon is my everyday life and when I question basic things, why do they happen and how to overcome the everyday struggle. Lacing up is the most natural thing that I can do. Running fast isn't my desire at the moment if you haven't guessed that by now. Forward movement is always my goal. It doesn't look like most but it's deliberate. I trained all year to preserve my happy. It's a pleasure to be a spectrum on a large rainbow. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #ultimatedirection #selfpropelled #superfithero #plussizeathlete #effyourbeautystandards #liveadventurously (at Central Park, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4Xy0WjHA7N/?igshid=139kvt2xmpcwd

First race in NYC after a month if traveling for the marathon tour and today was amazing. I am feeling stronger on my feet and the course have me so much life. I spoke with so many people today and exceptionally grateful for every hug and kind word passed on to me. A few days ago, I gave up on trying to find this @eloquii ad in the train station. On my way home, a random stranger says "I just saw you somewhere" and I thought that I hear that a lot. He points to the advertisement video behind me. I might have missed the train but this was epic enough for me. Going home to shower off this funk, possibly treat myself to a pedicure and maybe even find a good spot to hang tonight -- or maybe a nap is good too. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #raceday #nyrrmini10k #eloquii #xoq #sponsoredbysuperfithero (at Columbus Circle) https://www.instagram.com/p/BydK0tGHmyK/?igshid=s46ha3fqq8pq

My muscles cursed me out all day. You're welcome. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #everybodyhappy #blinkfitness #crosstraining #calisthenics #strengthtraining #womenwholift #sponsoredbysuperfithero #plussizeathlete (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxyP8pEnkt7/?igshid=951k9s28o0tp

The Cleveland Marathon 8K was a great experience today. Although the weather was gloomy, it didn't stop all of us on the course from shining. I had the wonderful opportunity to run with my friends and former ambassador buddies and I was able to have a decent shakeout run while pacing my friend on the course. Tomorrow morning might be brutal. The temps are expected to hover around 86 degrees. If I pushed through 105 during the Finger Lakes 50K and the brutal Arizona dry heat that hovered at 105 during my first 100K, I think I can push through tomorrow. I'll be moving smart throughout the course and doing my best to reach the finish line safely. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #representationmatters #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #ultimatedirection #selfpropelled #plussizeathlete #sponsoredbysuperfithero (at Downtown Cleveland) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxoPX0Mn2Bw/?igshid=mo93kgimcu7u

What's up yall! I heard there's a half marathon race this morning. Am I ready or nah? Let's get it! #runningfatchef #fatrunner #raceday #superfithero #swiftwick #chaseadventure #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #plussizeathlete #representationmatters #endometriosiswarrior💛 (at Logan Square, Philadelphia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvq7VWYh9wj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1aks80hwtuxr0

Feeling extra productive today and excited for no damn reason. Maybe it's because I'm wearing a rainbow? Didn't get in much of a workout today because work called my name. 30 minutes of gym time did a body good. How did you chase adventure today? Happy Tuesday! #runningfatchef #fatrunner #diversitymatters #lgbtq🌈 #representationmatters #everybodyhappy #blinkfitness #everybodydifferent #smile #hokaoneone #timetofly #skratchlabsambassador #womenwhofly #ultrarunner #marathoner #swiftwick #chaseadventure #womenwholift #WomensHistoryMonth (at Blink Fitness) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvNd6EtB8F5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=acna8pcjvq96

UNFUCKWITABLE: My confidence didn't come from what people call "concern trolling." A bunch of friends, family members and naysayers reminding me that I'm fat didn't make me the person that I am today. I almost lost EVERYTHING before I found my happy. And the crazy part is that it was here side eyeing me the entire time. My heart told me I was beautiful and strong. Even my reflection would give me two snaps of approval but people failed me every time. I was too fat, now not fat enough to some to have this conversation and even accused of pretending to have a disability to cover up the mere fact that I'm fat. Honey please -- I know I'm fat (and spare me the "you're not as fat as me" and "don't talk about yourself that way" comments.) For the Chicago marathon, I'll be running my 5'3 1/2, 236 lbs muscular leg, gym day arms and three pack loose gut ass across the finish line. Please continue trying to educate me on my own body. Continue reminding me that you can walk faster than I can run. Remind me about my unhealthy eating habits any time I pick up a piece of carb. And I'll keep showing you this 48 inch muscular ass with stretch marks to kiss after I'm done with these 26.2 miles. Keep watching. I'll keep entertaining you with my success. Perhaps you'll learn how to curl something beside those lips. Tell me... #doyouevenshutupbro? Really... do you. Excuse me while I "promote obesity" as I put in this work. See your salty asses on the... sofa? You are in charge of your own happiness. Go chase your own rainbow instead of trying to rob my spectrum. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #runner #whyirun #plussizeathlete #endurance #fitness #fitnessmotivation #timetofly #mycurvescan #hokaoneone #skirtsportsambassador #REALwomenmove #swiftwick #chaseadventure #doyouevenlift #womenwholift #fitmom #cycling #cyclist #ultramarathoner #marathoner #representationmatters #loveletters #loveyourself (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BohWbHLlvv2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kq7335qktn15

I've been emotionally out of whack since I came back home from NC. I was struggling to get out of my bed, no desire to cook and I ate one meal a day until yesterday. Depression will have you skipping showers, avoiding calls and feeling guilt about being depressed; maybe even depressed talking about your depression out loud to others. I've been seeing butterflies and moths either at home or the strangest places every single day since the Finger Lakes 50K. At one point of the race, I had a few land on me. Every day since then, a few make their presence in my bedroom, even at the airport in the bathroom and it made me think of my father. And loss. And these miscarriages. And the stress of not wanting to overthink about how many people are watching progressions and setbacks. Today, I acknowledged once again that I'm human. That I tend to get in this rut every year this time for the last four years like clockwork. I see moths and butterflies every time I get to a low point, even in the winter. Call me crazy but in ways I find it comforting. In my heart, I think it's my dad. When I was running with my husband, a huge butterfly with two smaller ones fluttered over my head, again trying to land on my arm. I slowed down to the swelling of my ankles, took a breath and thought to myself that these butterflies are just visitors or maybe reminders that I'm not on this journey alone. And for some reason, that gave me peace yesterday on the Rockland Trails. Photo: @esnelldesign #runningfatchef #fatrunner #runner #roadrunner #trailrunner #itgetsbetter #hellobeautiful #blackgirlsrun #skirtsports #REALwomenmove #swiftwick #chaseadventure #timetofly #mycurvescan #athleisure #athlete #plussizeathlete #endurance #athlete #ultramarathontraining #marathontraining #ultrarunner #ocrtraining #spartan (at Rockland Lake State Park)