#fatherissue

Any tips on how to get out of this situation? Like the only thing I can think of is move out or family therapy but hes too stubborn for that and I got no job or money...

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I really can't say happy considering all the yelling and crap you had to bring on this day. I didn't even think it was neccessary to call mom a b just cause you see her than argue with her and still calling her a b for being HER. Ridiculous. If you want to leave then leave. I don't give a crap anymore about you staying. You've been saying you'll leave for years and make me cry but really, all you want is sympathy then you start another yelling for crying of you. So what'a the point. Stop putting this endless cycle of depression and sadness because you can't enjoy life. Yes we are in proverty but we have to live through it, it's called life and survival. I tried ti enjoy father's day with you but all day it's been about your hot tempered and your greed for money. And to call you father? I don't know anymore to even call you that and that has become sad. It has only become a habit in calling you dad because you're the man who gave my mom sperm and to reproduce me and so you're my dad. Before I can really call you my father, now I don't know anymore. Before I can see that you loved and cared for us, now I can only see you as an authoritive figure. Do you really love us now? Or are we built to be as loyal subjects in answering yes to everything. Everything HAS to revolve around you. For example, buying me a car so I can learn to drive but actually you wanted a Sportage for yourself. If I bought a sportage it would be for you, not for me. Well thanks for my birthday gift in getting yourself a car. Oh and let's not forget you buying us stuff. Oh that so nice offering of buying us stuff with nothing in return other than if we betray you, you use it against us and have love ones shun us as bad children. Ain't that lovely. And really I'm tired of your manipulation. I can't even see you as a father right now because your greed for power and money. If you're willing to let money in the way of family relationships, then I can't call you father or properly express I Love You because apparently the worth of money overpowers the love of your child.

He's telling me how I'm a stupidas for not getting a scholarship because I'm in the Top 10. At least I got one. And really not everyone gets scholarship just because they're in the Top. Just beacuse you're in the Top it doesn't guarantee you'll get a scholarship just like getting accepted to UCs. So stop Bullshi-ing me. Not even the Valedictorion and one of the saluditorian got a scholarship. Lucky they got a full ride. Even so, I have a friend also in my same position. And don't say I fuc-ing didn't try. I've been trying but it's not easy getting one. I couldn't get the Dell or Rims scholarship. I couldn't even get those scholarships I applied online because they're one in a million. Scholarship isn't like 40 year's ago when you went to college. There's not much of those testing. They're more of essays now. So don't freakin' say you know everything when the fast development such as technology within this generations. Things don't stay the same even if it's a tradition. It eventually changes even if it's gradually. So the next time I'm applying for a scholarship and it ask for my most hated or my biggest obstacle, I'm going to tell how my drunkard dad put me through shi-. And I won't be afraid to write about your shames.