While working on upper body today, Pam dropped in the idea of sitting with one of the high level trainers and having him (they're all male) do a fit test on me. They'd also do one of those fat tests with the pinchers.
She seems really focused on finding out why nothing seems to be changing outwardly with my body. Â I said "Maybe my body just doesn't change..." which she seemed opposed to. She's noticed that I am getting stronger but is curious about why it's just not showing outwardly.
Maybe it's genetics. Maybe it's hormones. Maybe it's my sleeping patterns. Maybe years of yo-yo dieting has destroyed my metabolism.
I don't know. But what I do know is that I showed immense willpower today. At lunch I made two pieces of salmon - one for lunch and one for dinner. Sadly the salmon was overcooked and the first thing I thought of was "Gee, I can't wait to eat this for dinner after it's been reheated in the microwave."
It was pretty horrible but I suffered through it instead of what I would have usually done, picked up some take out and thrown out the chewy salmon.
Then the intern came in with some kind of Portuguese tart filled with custard. It looked so delicious but I didn't go for it. I said no about 15,000 times, even when my co-worker was standing next to me eating it and taunting me with it.
How strong am I? Pretty strong.
