G drove me to my appointment. The orange didn't taste bad cold but it burned my throat like there was hidden hot sauce in it. It sugar crashed me and made me sleepy and then I found out my favorite phlebotomist quit. G stayed in the car which was probably for the best.

The change put me on edge a little. The head nurse had to do my labs so I gave her the PTSD talk and explained what to do if I spiraled. Big surprise, she missed my vein (probably from me psyching her out lmao) and I fainted.

I blacked out and came to hugging her, like "face against her boobs, don't leave me" type hugging. She was patting my back like I was drunk. I was embarrassed and apologized and she was laughing because before that I apparently grabbed her by the scrub collar and demanded to know where I was and what they were doing to me.

I have 0 memory of that part. I was just relieved I didn't swing at them like I did on the ER staff during March's spiral 😅 She said she'd never seen that before but at least I warned her before hand. She sat with me until I was "normal" and my color and temperature came back. She was reassuring.

Now I'm back home. G picked up Mexican food and I could barely pick at it. He wanted to eat in the restaurant. I tried but it can be a trigger for me and I was still grasping at what day it was and what I was doing. Sweetpea is super active tho. I feel like I want to bury myself in covers and cry. B is taking sprout to a psych appointment soon and I'm too afraid to nap because I'm afraid I'll sleep through my alarm for the digital class I have in a few hours.

It's the glucose test. This will tell me if I have Gestational Diabetes. Which is pretty much when the placenta decides to make one diabetic for the duration of one's pregnancy.

I am a picky eater. I literally eat very small servings of veggies only a handful of times a year- mostly a few pieces of corn/peas that I wash down with my drink as if I were swallowing pills. I might have a salad with iceberg lettuce a few times a year. I live off of heavily processed foods, carbs, a little bit of meat, and a lot of determination (seriously, I don't know how I'm as healthy as I am; even my doctor is baffled).

If I have to cut out sugar and carbs from my diet, I'll starve. If you don't manage your GD, you become a higher risk for preeclampsia. I already have a few risk factors, so I really can't fuck around with this.

I know I shouldn't worry about it untill/unless I fail the test, but I just feel like I know I will. I actually planned on pigging out this weekend since I might not be able to for a while, but then I got a mild cold and didn't want to eat much because of the nausea.

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It was good seeing my brother and a few friends. But what a long journey home it was today.

Lately I’ve been feeling a bit off, very tired and heavy and clumsy and sore. Also it’s time for my glucose screening test on Tuesday, something I get to do because I’m over 35.

I think I’m going to give our clinic a call and ask about my blood pressure, which has been record low lately (117/70). I remember the doc mentioning too low is a risk too so I want to check.

Best news first - thanks to two days of taking magnesium supplements my leg cramps are almost entirely gone and I feel kind of normal again!!  Hallelujah, this is an incredible turn around and I am so grateful to have functional use of my legs again!  I guess I keep taking the supplements forever more now?  At least till the end of the pregnancy?  Yes?

Went to a work event last night which means I had a full day at the office PLUS a 2.5 hour event afterwards (plus an hour driving round trip) meaning I didn’t get home until 9 p.m.!  Ugh.  I don’t know how to wear business/cocktail attire while pregnant so I wore this maroon floral dress with some wedges and fancier earrings.  Also - check out this raw looking chicken they served.  I realize it’s a piece of prosciutto and melted cheese on top of the chicken but gosh does it look unappetizing.  

Since I didn’t get home until 9 p.m. last night that means I looked like a criminal as I was attempting to take the license plates off the car and rummage through it taking out any keepsakes - in the dark, in the rain.  I was quite a sight, I’m sure.  

The car should be picked up today but hopefully by the place we’re donating it to and not the city’s towing unit.  On Monday I called and left a voicemail for the police officer who left the vehicle notice and asked for a one-day extension but never heard back :/  Here’s hoping the car is gone when I get home tonight and it was picked up by the right place.  Had to capture one last view of the car from the window.  While this wasn’t even my vehicle, it’s the car that Kevin had when I first met him, so therefore it’s extra special and hard to say goodbye to.  

Here are some selfies for the SDS I was tagged in most recently by @zerocarb. Tagging my top four - @c00kandtell, @marathonmelissa, @meishafindingbalance and @always-the-2nd!  

Here are some low carb eats the past few days, including the trusty Keto Chow back in action!  Today was my second glucose tolerance test, hence the plain eggs and water for breakfast this morning.  Fingers crossed I pass it again.  But, if I don’t, I’ll go in for the three-hour test and we’ll tackle it from there.  

Tonight I get to figure out how to pack for my baby shower on Saturday while knowing most of CA won’t have power. lolz timing.  I’ll probably be bringing every dress that fits and letting my mom choose what dress I should wear for the shower.  We’ll see what we end up with!  Thankfully, I put in the invitations that people should mail gifts to VA so I don’t have to travel back with them but I’m bringing an empty suitcase just in case.