Bon Voyage, 2013!
December 31, 2013 | 1:46 pm
           Wow, it has been another fruitful year! Last time I checked people were talking about the end of the world last year – sometime on May and of course, December 21, 2012. What happened to that, by the way? It only proves one thing – nothing has ever been certain in this world. Maybe the world that they were pertaining to was the year itself. Since it was December, the “world” really was ending which is likewise happening to 2013 in a bit.
           People are so bothered with endings. Does it matter? It’s one of the inevitable things in the world. All of us should be used to it because if not, feelings of pain and fear are going to be there. Anyway, before things get too much dramatic, I just want to a little look back on the year that’s about to end. What are the new things that came to my life? What changes have I done prior to my annual list of New Year’s Resolutions? Basically, what happened year long?
           Last year, I started to write a journal every day. I originally planned it so that I could talk less and sharing of stories will simply be unnecessary. I made it but unfortunately, it was only until June. What was the point anyway if nothing really changed as–a–matter–of–factly? It was just frustrating. The only perk is that I’ve been too sentimental (sarcastic).
           During summer, I had my on–the–job training at Makati. I got to have a glimpse of the corporate world and the actual future of my career path. I’ve learned to live more independently. The daily routine of work sometimes kills me. I even once said that I could not afford to live such kind of life doing the same thing every day. I want some adventures and experience diversity and fun at work. But I guess that would have to wait. Nothing really comes so easy. Everything must be worked on hard before you could achieve it. Earning a little allowance from OJT, in the first place, is hard and takes a lot of time and effort. It’s one of the lessons I’ve got on hand aside from experiencing life itself there in Makati.
           This year was also remarkable in terms of relationships. On the month of May, I had my first official girlfriend. We lasted for three months in exact. I ended it up realizing that I’m not yet ready for a serious relationship. I still have a lot of dreams and plans for myself in which I couldn’t see clearly any significant other being part of it for the moment. I’m a man of big dreams and no one can stand against it. After all, everything has its own time. I believe there’ll come a time when I will need someone to share my life with forever. Now’s certainly not it.
           I have made new friends and lost some along the way. It seemed to me that you can’t be friends with a new one while you’re friends with your past. When you’re also placed in the middle of two friends simultaneously putting you to test, you can only maintain one and lose the other. I have many experiences in this matter. And one thing I realized – relationships ruin friendships.
           On a different note, I had a new family this year. Welcome to the world of family once again. It’s the one thing I forgot feeling for a moment after my mom passed away. I’m already used to being alone all the time. My father only provides money for my physical needs but he was never there for my emotional endeavors. It’s hard to be lonesome. You get to be more pessimistic all the time. It sucks! But once you’re used to it, you’ll see how little the need is for people around you. You’ll learn not to trust anyone and totally rely on yourself alone. However, later will you notice that you care for people less and become cold–hearted.
           Every event in our lives contributes to what we become in the future. Characters and personalities of people are not genes to be inherited from parents. They don’t even have a DNA. Everything just suddenly becomes part of how we are being developed. Every ending usually gives birth to new beginnings. What if we fail this year? What if we’ve done nothing? What if we were asleep the whole year? It doesn’t matter actually because there’s always a new day, a new year to start anew. Time is just another machine which people invented. It was devised to make us aware that we have a life and the way we spend it is what actually matters. Another year’s about to come. What happens next?
