#fangznstuffyaps

I love fanon jeff the killer he’s so funny i hate him.

Personally when i start to get my greywhite hairs (that if i even get to see them coming) i would never try to hide them by dying them over and over with my natural hair colour like whaaaaat THEYRE SO COOL i dont get why people are so afraid of aging physically fir aesthetic reasons, like silver hair IS SO COOL i mean i get the health complications and being scared of that and all but like dude aging is just not that terrifying imo wrinkles are just that

I am at a constant war between wanting to kill my self and wanting to become immortal just to see how history plays out for the next millennia and because i have an unrequited love for life despite everything

Honestly i wish i wasn’t human or didn’t have to abide to human rules so i could learn about them instead, from an unbiased and neutral way. Cuz like for how much i hate humanity as a whole and all i cant help but still love it and find it fascinating, LIFE is so beautiful and complicated despite all its horrors, learning from individuals. There’s so much out there and things that don’t know and never will but i yearn to seek that knowledge. I don’t know maybe i think this way cuz i kinda always seen my self as an outsider looking from the outside in, feel excluded from ‘normality’ and society but still suffer the consequences of being unlike other in a way I can’t really seem to place. Which is tiring and rather dreadful, i wish to have nothing to do with that, social responsibility and all, but not because i wish to be malicious, i never wished to be unkind or hurt anyone i wish to learn and experience experiences without the weight of expectations. I want to removed so far off from the human narrative but still be me so that others can recognise that i really am not like them so that they can’t expect to measure me by the same standards. I really don’t fancy people. Most of them bore me. Yet there’s still something to look to.

I WANNA READ THE BUFFALO HUNTER HUNTER SO BADDDDDDDDD someone ship it to Europe NOW IM GONNA CRY