#fallenarchangelofpride

WAR

Been Running with a painful emotion, Stuck in a carcass underneath the ocean,

Thinking what you want, while everything falls apart.

God! I never thought, we could grow apart.

Never have I ever felt this way,

Your memories haunt me every day,

Every moment I’m alive, I’ve got to fight.

Bringing deaths & lies, mannequins of fright.

Epidemics of anxiety & frustration,

I’d be so happy if had no relations, with anyone alive.

To end this war, I’ve gotta fight.

The demon in my mind, burying me alive.

I can’t let you, get hurt!

I’ll never let you feel alone,

Ever in your life.

So we see eye to eye,

Lady love :

It had been a year since I'd been heartbroken , there was no peace of mind for me .

It was the Boards that got me devastated . It was gonna be the percentage that frustrated me.

I had regrets, I had these dreams I thought were never gonna be fullfilled .

I had my grandmother's death on my mind , I had my plates full.

Then a few days went by , and I got provincial admission in a stream I didn't want.

There was this girl , who seemingly liked me alot , I didn't feel like I'd ever belong to her.

There was this girl , who embraced me , as miserable as I was .

There was this girl ,who waited on me to get better .

There was this girl, who got me to go out with her friends & spend a day with her.

She was something I never thought I'd have . Yes , she turned out to be my lady love.

There was this girl , who proposed me & I reciprocated back & it became a wonderful world .

There was this past that haunted me , there was her past as well.

There were misunderstandings & my immaturity & on her side , her silent love for me

I protest... I did love her . I protest , I still do!

But there were moments when I felt in pain & got frustrated & shot it all out on her.

There were moments of anger that I regretted the moment I said something rude .

There were momebts in which , I fucked up! But I loved her , I still do!

There were times I felt lonely & I made her feel the same way I guess .

There had been days when I sat down to think & play while ignoring her at lengths.

I don't know what got into me , I made her live without me , rather...I made her regret being with me.

For though I cared I couldn't express it the way I should've , & came off clingy , obsessive & rude.

So , there was this girl , a free bird of her own will.

There was this jerkish me .

There was a love story without an happy ending .

But I protest , I love her...

I know she couldn't care less .

I understand but I want her to live happily , together again .

For, I know I can be what she wanted me to be.

For, I'm the best version of me that I can be.

& I want the best for her.

I want her to let all the anger out & let me back into her heart ,