#fadilah

The thing I hate about racism towards asians is that some Asians don't acknowledge the fact that it's racism towards them. And that sucks because when a another person of color wants to address the fact that it's racist, they always say I'm not offended it's just jokes or their just appreciating my culture when really their not and I really get upset cause of it.

And I’m mad confused how this boy gonna really play him as tho I’m dumb or some shit.

I’ve started drawing again. It’s weird because I stopped cause I hated my way of art it was always abstract and it had a lot going on. I never could really did anything other than abstract art. Even my portraits were abstract. I’ve constantly study other artist and watched YouTube videos but it always come out abstract. I’ve wanted to do minimalist art but I failed. I tried sculpture but I failed , I’ve tried realistic art but I failed again. I’ve tried to soften my hand to make my art more graceful and shit, I mean I’m getting there but I’m actually still being very harsh and I guess that’s my touch. I’m an abstract artist and I’m gonna accept that, I guess plus I love oil pastels and oil paint because it was easier to blend the colors and make new ones but I’ll try acrylic paint it looks cool but I know I’ll have difficulty because the thing about oil pastels was that blending it especially with you hands really gave the art a raw look it make look more abstract and I feel as though it will be hard to achieve abstract with acrylic but I’ll try.

My aesthetic is Genevieve Nnaji in the early 2000s