#fadedthoughts

i am my own worse..worst enemy. i let my thought drain away the little bit of happy i found lying somewhere on the floor

left unwanted. appreciated but debated whether things were ever always as they seem

so surreal. lost in the feels. but really just numb. from the sum of 3 which apparently was never meant to be.

too salty. throw more. you can never be too safe.

just escape for a moment

which is never long enough. i coughed it up

regurgitate, replace the gut

feelings with something more substantial than clouds of smoke

left in a mist of saturated bliss

that moment when i lift her skirt

unbuttoned shirt thwirled

through the ceiling

a big fan-

until

without a warning

charming tails, and brains of course

mixed with lemonade

uncocked details derailed my train

of thought

good thing i traced it back to heart when