#ezzyvent

Your eyes are so big, so shiny. If I were to stare into them, I would get lost. I’d forget about my issues.

Your height is small.. but it’s good, it’s perfect. Perfect to hold and adore.

Such soft looking hair, I only dream about the thought of running my hand through it.

I love your small petite figure,

My handsome little pet.

I crave to hold you, I crave to have you held hostage in a hug that feels like forever.

I lust to show you off to the world, a collar and chain attached to your small neck.

Oh my sweet 𝓛,

As long as you beg.

As long as you love

As long as you obsess over me.

As long as you Devote your whole entire being to me.

Heart, mind and soul. Then I belong to you.

My sweet, please never leave me. Never stop loving me.

Even friendships.

It goes past normal

And I ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴀᴅᴏʀᴇ ɪᴛ

The feeling that comes with!

I love them so much~!

𝙎𝙤 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙄 𝙤𝙗𝙨𝙚𝙨𝙨.

I crave their attention.

And I crave to have them back.

𝕏, LHT, H, my sweet 𝓛.

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(Images for Context to this vent are below everything)

You know, even after these years.

I still catch myself remembering how sweet your hand felt in mine.

How you were my ‘kitten’. How you were so embarrassed to even hold hands.

How good it felt to have us in each other’s arms? How good it felt to be ..in love?

I wasn’t YOUR first love. But you were mine. I don’t adore you now.

God I can barley stand being around you now!

But I’ll always get a little soft when you call me hun. I’ll always be here to listen to you. I’ll always ..semi love you. Even if it’s bitter.

You’re with that little shit Elliot now, right? It’ll be your 11th month soon.

At least you found happiness there.

We almost made it to that. Remember?

Remember how much I loved you?

And how when you cheated all those times, I always excused it? Said it was okay? Then I’d say ‘I love you’ and then you’d go ‘love you too’

Don’t you remember all the fucking marks on my arm you witnessed after you saw me for the first time after breaking up for good?

Don’t you remember all the fucking school days I spent away from you because you wanted to hangout with daphne instead of me?

Remember how I’d get panic attacks from the mention of your first love? Stasia?

And how I spent hours and nights conforting you after she abused you? Sexually assaulted you? Hit you? Made you bleed? Called you names?

Remember when I comforted you all the times she broke your heart when WE, AS IN US were dating????

Remember when everyone In school thought we broke up because you didn’t like being around me so we never hung out?

Remember when we were on and off? Oh! And when I proposed? And you promised it would happen in the future?

Remember our future kids? Luna? Dean? Amanda? Kirk? And how we would be 2 wonderful parents? I’d be a therapist and you’d be a neurosurgeon?

Remember when you called me pathetic? A brat? Spoiled? Stupid? A bitch? Told me I didn’t care about the fact my grandma was dying? All on my FUCKING birthday? And how I cried till 3 am?

Remember when you weren’t so fucking stupid and dull?

I’m over you now, genuinely. I couldn’t imagine dating your ass again.

But why couldn’t we be happy. I gave you everything I could offer. Jewelry? Love? Protection? Months worth of listening to you

Why wasn’t I enough.

I know the phrase ‘you are enough’ ‘I am enough’

(Thank you sir for that!)

But why wasn’t I enough for you back then.

I am enough now. I’m great! I take care of myself. I’m pretty now. So.. pretty, I’m smarter? I carry the life experiences of someone in their 30’s almost!

So?

So what Ezra?

I don’t know. I vented a lot. I’m okay now.

Hold me,my love

You hold my heart

You hold my soul and mind.

Without even meaning.

Of course you could be better and actually take control of that shit

But it’s okay

No ones perfect.

You have me in your corner

No matter how much my heart breaks and aches

I’ll forever love you.