28.9.2020
I haven’t made one of these in a while! Warning for rollercoaster of emotions:
I spent the weekend at a meeting for the extra course I am taking. The course is on behaviour of zoo animals, so we were at a zoo and I saw many nice animals (hmu if you want pictures!) Today is a pretty calm day, we have an exam on the first leg of the not-extra course (that is, vet program course, specifically animal husbandry and ethology) tomorrow, so today we have time to study. Which is really good, I think I would be feeling quite bad if I didn’t get a day without classes after such an intense weekend!
On a different note, I went to my uni’s mental health services on Friday. I have been struggling with focus and procrastination for quite a while now, I’ve just postponed getting help (ironically, considering the procrastination issues), aided by covid-19 of course. Problem with that is of course that things kept getting worse, what with me having a bit of a breakdown in the middle of my pharmacology exam last term (which caused me to create this blog while I was studying for the retake!) and then of course, my mum passing away at the end of the summer as a horrible cherry on top of the mental chaos sundae. I have been so nervous about going there, but it was quite nice. We have a second appointment booked where I am hoping I will dare to ask his opinion on whether I might be burnt out or have ADHD or something...
Moral of the story being: Don’t postpone asking for help. Especially when it’s something you can’t feasibly fix for yourself. This goes for pretty much everything.

















