what was your most difficulties you experience last 10 years?
10 years is a wide time span, I’ve experienced most of the common life hardships.
Failure, disappointment, physical abuse, and loss. Led to severe depression, detachment, changes in my physical appearance, antidepressants and alcohol abuse, loss of interest in the whole idea of living, suicidal thoughts, then suicidal attempts.
Although I was always the type of a person who have seen the tiniest hole that sneaks light within the darkest caves, always believed that life is fair. I have been blinded and a complete idiot to let myself flow with my depressive and toxic thoughts.it was so stupid to surrender to darkness, to wait for the outsiders helping hands.
Then eventually things happened because the beautiful life is actually fair, it sends a lot of signs and opportunities always. i woke up the second day realizing how dumb I was, feeling so attached to living, knowing that actually I’m a free human being, I was created with the right to choose my path. And I chose to be happy on that day. I decided to hold on, to heal, to be there for myself, to forgive for the sake of my own heart, to accept and learn from the past and never look back. To stay present and never stop looking for that hole that sneaks in the glow. To adapt to the nature of how life goes, to work on myself, to mature up and to love it with all of its ups and downs…..
it still gets dark tho, its the way life goes but I can always see beauty in the darkness “I know this is cliche” but its real. I can already see myself reacting differently towards hardships, and I’ll keep on working hard in order to be able to hold on as tight as I can.
Life is difficult. However, It’s such a beautiful and an interesting trip with all of its blessings and sufferings. :)
