#expect more?

Not gonna lie, every time someone comments on that last Albatross chapter and says I hurt them..... It pleases me.

How do I explain my brain to someone whose brain works normally? How do I explain that no, I don't know how to explain why I didn't do it. I don't know how to tell you how fucked my brain is when it processes doing a task. I get a task and I either forget about it or remember it but fret about how to start it. And then I just sit there worrying about doing it but by the time I get to it there's not enough time. It can be done a bit late but there's not enough time. There's not enough time and there will never be enough time and since there's not enough time what's the point in even starting? Why start when I know I don't have enough time and I will never have enough time. Maybe I did actually have enough time, it just would have been a little late but I'd still be ok. Even still my mind zeroes in on the 'fact' that there's not enough time and there will never be enough time. Nothing I do will ever matter so what's the point in trying? So like I always do I give up before I even start because there's not enough time. I start on an activity that brings me joy and soon I don't remember why I started doing this, what was it distracting me from?