#exo talks

i have been doing well!! my court case was adjourned until i could get legal aid (thank fuck dhhjsdh) and it will be held again in may.

i’m also moving next week, and after that i may have a bit of time to answer some of the questions i have backed up. i’m sorry it’s been so long!!

Lay: Happy Birthday Kyungsooya~

D.O: Thank you but you’re an hour late.

Lay: Timezones, it’s 12 now here

D.O: *leaves on read*

Lay: I love you and I miss you?

it is so difficult to express fully the dynamics of instances and circumstances, but what i can describe is this painful loneliness / crushing down on me like atlas struggling to hold up the sky, i feel my being flicker but/ i’m trapped and enclosed, in iron shoes.

i try to take them off sometimes but i’ve been doing that much too often and the people around me are afraid that i’ll float away, vaporise, dissipate/ more for concern of their delicate consciences than for what’s happening to me i feel my insides erode/ acid seeping out soon i’ll just be a puddle.

but nothing is bleeding and nothing aches, this time there’s no one to blame so the pain is just everywhere/ it’s like the air that i’m breathing and every interaction that begins and ends with avoided eye contact/ but i’m shaking so violently and now my face is disheveled it’s vulgar it’s repulsive but it’s all from within it’s all just pouring out and if you come too close it’ll spray onto you/ and then you’ll say “get help,” and that will be that.

extremely busy still!!

i would love to get back on here as soon as possible, but i have the threat of eviction from my house looming over me and i have to appear in court soon so…..yeah.

who knows! i may end up homeless. we’ll see. it won’t be the first time the government has done this to me l m a o.

i am!! sorry to keep dropping off the face of the earth but unless anything major comes up i don’t see much of a point in posting ;w;

as i’ve already stated, i hope to be back and answering stuff as soon as i can. which is basically when i learn whether i get to keep my house or if the government is going to rob me of it. again!