#existential princess

It’s destroying all my relationships. I can’t be present with them when I’m so insanely in my head and rotting inside. I recently found out i wasn’t aware of a spam account she has where my other friend is in but I wasn’t. I’m sure she thinks I’m not worthy enough to get close like that or something. Everytime I try to get close I just realize ppl don’t want me

I don’t think she will change and continue to pressure me. I think she felt sympathetic bc I broke down crying. But at least I voiced my feelings and said I don’t want to be living with her if she keeps doing this. I mentioned how she can’t bring up what other people will think about my body either. She does this to shame me constantly when I literally go out covering myself. Atleast when I’m around people they know. I never said that to her before so let’s see how this unfolds.