#existential love

💟 ;; EXISTENTIALOVIN !!

⟩⟩ PRONUNCIATION -- ex-ih-stent-ial-ov-in ''

💟!! DEFINITION ;; a LOVIN / loviaspec gender related to existential love (the opposite of existential dread)

### ETYMOLOGY // "existential" + "love"

> FOR !! @m-grouped

> FLAG + COINING BY !! @m-grouped

> LOVIN COINED BY !! @mogai-spackle

⚛️ TERM COINING ;; Sep. 11, 2022

♾️ FLAG CREATION ;; Sep. 11, 2022

FLAG ID ;;

A nonstandard flag design. The flag has a pale lavender square-diamond in the center of it, with a hot pink heart in the middle of it. Behind the diamond are 2 other diamonds, another square one that is big enough to clip the edges of the flag and a horizontally stretched one. The other diamonds and the background are split into quadrants, each colored differently. From left-to right and top-to-bottom the backgrounds of the quadrants are hot pink, purple, neon violet, and dark navy blue. In the same order the large diamond's quadrants are neon violet, dark navy blue, hot pink, and purple. The stretched diamond's quadrants are dark navy blue, hot pink, purple, and neon violet. // END ID.

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I stay up nights worrying about you and want to reach out from across the oceans!! For you!! I want you to have happy birthdays and joyful holidays and energised mornings and sleepy contented evenings!

I want to see the light in your eyes when you talk about things you love!! I want to share oranges with you and I want to see your latest projects!! I care about you and it makes me sad that people can’t see the people who care about them.

People are so quick to be angry at the world and think they are all alone and that no one wants them but it’s not true and the world has done you wrong if you’re so bitter and jaded that you can’t understand that. That you think your life needs to be boiled down to work and being useful instead of watching the world around you with the child like wonder your eyes are meant to hold You must romanticise life! Even when things get hard you must see the good! Feeling the setting sun on your face while the breeze blows!! Making food in the kitchen while your loved ones stand by and joke with you!! Gently touching a flower petal!!

There are so many people in the world that care about you! Unconditionally!! They may not be around you physically but they care! I care about you! I love you so much and I will never need a reason to! If you are too tired to love yourself then let yourself be loved, kiddo. Whether it's by people near you or by people online but let yourself know that you are loved. You have people that care so much about you.

Oh what a splendid day it is,

where magic and reality mix.

What is love, what is hate,

what’s the difference they make?

Out of friends and foes,

out of lovers and fighters,

out of saints and sinners,

out of dreams and nightmares;

we came into existence,

we came to this planet.

To say what the heart feels,

to hear the words another tells,

to touch each others body,

to kiss each others’ lips.

We grew together,

yet we grew apart.

Days and nights,

light and darkness,

both worked together

to keep us from the world,

to keep us from ourselves.

We never met,

but we know each other.

Oh what a splendid twilight it is,

where we can meet at last.

What is light, what is darkness,

what’s the difference they make?

I see you, you hear me,

I touch you, you kiss me.

But then you whisper my doom,

your heart’s true desire.

“I’m just a dream,

I’m not real

and neither are you.”

So the story ends,

or so it starts,

one can never tell,

for it didn’t happen,

(Found something I wrote years ago.)

"I love you." 

  "Haha, no. You have been brought up in a world that advertises 'love' everywhere. There is no line of love that is not cliche. You think you should be in love. You think you should sing a love song. But really? All you have is an instinct to reproduce."

  "Maybe I have an instinct to love... ?" 

  "Maybe humans have an instinct to care for one another. But only because we can't survive alone."

  "Well, I have an instinct to care about you most of all."

  "You only say that because deep in your primal mind you believe there is a possibility that I could one day carry your children. In your animalistic need to spread your genes, you want to keep me safe."

  "Why does it matter? The reason I feel the way I do? The reason I care?"

  "We are not destined to be together. We are not a 'match made in heaven.' Your 'true love's kiss' would not wake me from death. Admit it. All of the gooey-lovey-dovey stuff that goes on in your head? You feel a little silly thinking it. You feel like you are narrating a stupid teen chick flick. That's because it's not real. It isn't yours. It belongs to the system."

  "I would love you if we were dropped onto a barren planet without memory of past life."

  "Hah! How can you claim such a thing? With no memory? If that were the case, you'd probably rape me."

  "WHAT? I would never---"

  "It wouldn't be wrong to you if you had no memory of your health classes."

  "I think I was born with that moral."

  "Nah. You know what? It's not even a big deal. Why don't you just get it over with. Rape me, and get on with your life."

  "What is wrong with you?!"

  "Love was created to regulate sex. It's true, women don't always feel like getting it on. And they won't enjoy it with just anyone. So, to protect women from being taken advantage of all the time, 'love' and courtship was invented. Oh, it is clever. 'I can't have sex with you. I don't love you.' Hah."

  "I'm not even ready for that yet. At all."

  "Oh, then I'm your practice courtship. Like a training bra."

  "No! I care about you! A lot! And if that is because of some primal instinct, I don't give a damn! I care about you more than anyone, and I'm going to call that love! So there! It's a word. An undefinable word. But I'll give it my own definition!"

  "Alright. Want to go see a movie?"

  "...What?"

  "I enjoy your company, and you seem to enjoy mine. So, let's go see a movie together."