Some days, weeks, and months are definitely harder than others. For me it’s about bettering myself, so I remind myself that I’m not going to get anywhere by staying put, that I need to get up and do rather than just think about it. This blog was actually one way I’ve been trying to help myself continue my journey. Truthfully, I’m currently going through a rough patch of anxiety and depression and I’ve fallen off the wagon. I have a lot going on in my personal life where I feel overwhelmed and no matter how hard I try to force myself I just can’t do it. There have been days I would go to the gym and I would just sit in the bathroom for an hour trying to find it within myself to get out there and do what I need to do but I can’t. I still have been making an effort to eat healthily which is better than nothing. With that being said I also remind myself that one of those bad days or even months like I said is not the end of my journey. It’s not me failing. Everyone goes through at their own pace and I’m still doing what my mental health will allow me without forcing myself to crumble. Anything is better than nothing. Some people may find that as a lame excuse but I just remind myself that I can only do what I feel comfortable forcing myself to do.

Today in a Little Goes a Long Way:

Idk how many minutes (>20) run at 18 degrees over ice and snow, followed by a short snatch practice sesh. 

I worked hard this morning. I went on my normal 1.5 mile walk and then came home and ran in circles and went up and down the stairs ten times until I finally finished my Apple Watch active minutes. Feels good.

Starting Weight - 266.6

Today’s Weight - 221.8

Loss this Week - 1 pound

Loss total - 44.8 pounds