#excess thoughts

This time it is “Sk8 the infinity”

And holy helll I love this soooo much this show has captured my heart and whoa. I love all of the characters there. They are such a colorful and dumb bunch that UGG I love them.

And I don’t know how to start this, so I’m just gonna go by the ships that I made in my mind my favorite to least favorites well although still my great in my books

Langa (Snow) and Renki

Oh how I love these couple of dummies. They are so idiots and I love them and their connection throughout the show really just popped off having them feel like just two people sooooooo invested into skating, just makes their dynamic pop and I love how Snow continues to become more and more talkative and how Renki is still just that lovable bright eyed dude who briefly lost that shine but got it back because of there love of each other.

and that also applies to Snow when he lost Renki for that moment just that brief yell of his name from that dude brought him back into the zone, oh my heart. Both times, and that second time where he was falling and saw the fun sign on the skateboard. I love them so much.

(and also how Langa said “Renki my love ……….. skateboarding” bro definitely forgot about skateboarding for a moment and you can’t deny me that headcannon)

Cherry and Joe

I love my musclebound gorilla, plus my smart tech beauty, these two are constantly fighting, and I love and love and continue to love this dynamic. They have exploded with insults to each other, and it continues to fuel that fiery passion that they both have and that sequence when Cherry got hurt and he was at Joe’s restaurant and he just clanks that glass there’s definitely more than meets the eye with them and I love that.

And both of their styles wow both unique and definitely themselves starting with Joe and his musclebound breaking the laws of physics just to win like I love when mostly characters just uses their muscle. You know it’s simple like pushed the root of problem, don’t have to think that much that turn is sharp so why not just kick at it it’s dumb it’s stupid and it’s so him

And Cherry, the rich fancy idiot who loves his technology and so so precise, and I love that he does calligraphy because that matches his preciseness with all of the details all of millisecond. He’s thinking he’s like oh if you move two centimeters and I love that bit. ( also shout out to that one like talking scene at the end of the credits of both of them talking about each other and how Joe says” you know he says he likes Japanese food, but he knows he loves Italian” and Cherry proves his point by ordering a carbonara they’re definitely made for each other.)

Adam and Tadashi

You can’t go wrong with a good servant and boss duo and they are something so it’s just wowing just their dynamic of one being this over belief, flamboyant king of kings and like an office worker stereotype and I think that’s just hilarious ,

But let’s start off with Adam. I think he might be my favorite character in the show as a villain and let because of his flamboyance is fighting style in a goddamn racing show is excellent how brutal he was with Renki and how he just spins him bashes through walls on his skateboard he knows what’s up when riding down a skateboard, and how he starts off with a running start is amazing him running after his skateboard and hitting people with this his final combat combos are continuing to amaze me like what the heck is all of these moves like it’s not that serious bro, but he continues to take it that serious and his outfits that was outfits scream his name he knows what he is and he continues to impress and dress accordingly, ( also I can’t believe he says this in the show “bitches Bros and and non-binary hoes”like I can’t conceive of the phrase I either use occasionally or see on the internet to be in this show)

Tadashi is lacking in character, but his OVA appearance is so real and I love out of them like him staying in bed for a good and I mean a good while is fantastic and their dynamic is cute with that little bit of him fixing his hair but back to Adam his voice in dub does something but that’s it for these two psycho and Normie

And now for the singles

Miya and himself

I really like his character design and I can’t really speak much about him because he barely does anything but he’s just funny. He’s just a little dude he’s just there to get him some friends and it was interesting what they showed in the beginning and I really wish that his character expanded inrenki inferiority complex arc but you want some you lose some it’s a very tightly packed show and I wish there was some more things to add onto him like helping Renki or having Renki apologize ( favorite bit about him was that beach episode where he says to Joe that he is his father and that’s just an amazing bit )

Shadow and himself

Oh my clown prince of chaos. I adore him. He’s so silly. He’s so dumb. He’s such a love and I really wish him to be with that flower girl but sadly and I hate the offer for doing that just having her having a different guy, but who knows maybe that’s her brother or something maybe please I’m holding out. Hope that he gets with the flower girl because he deserves someone and I am really hoping that flower girl is also a skater that dresses like shadow and I think that would’ve been an amazing dynamic of hiding and working at a flower shop and when they meet two personas clash but yea shadow is a silly goober( Also I adore him being a good dad with all of that dad bit)

But yeah, that is my thoughts dumps on this amazing show. This is definitely a 10 out of 10 with it just showing the resolve of finding something you would be happy with and I love snows final speech with about being scared of the question what makes you happy and I am, knowing the answer for now, but hopefully it stays the same for me



TRIGGER WARNING SUCIDE

So I replayed doki doki literature club after some months after I first played it and I had to replay it cuz Sayori is just been like in my head each time I felt depressed (I know that sounds dumb)

But how she described her ways she felt during act 1 it has just been stuck with me

Like just a small example her line after getting confess to something like “I SHOULD be feeling happy” has been in my thoughts since I do feel that when hanging out with my friends because I love hanging out with out them they just brighten up the world for me and stuff but at times of just hanging out for bit too long I have dreadful feeling in my stomach for no particular reason and it just felt like “why aren’t you happy you are supposed to be happy”

And this got particularly bad during one hang out where it was all when then that dread hit and after dropping my friends off to their homes I was alone with my thoughts and at one point surrounded by them thought I just sped the car up hoping to crash and burn with no one knowing

So from that I been trying to improve throughout in summer just because of other close calls but I keep on remembering Sayori thing and one of the things I just don’t want to happen is to end like Sayori in way

Like I honestly not in the best mental space but there is a bit of epiphany I had while talking to a old friend I had and there was a part of me he was constantly screaming to not show this self to them (my sucidal thoughts) but I ultimately did and he was compassionate and that just led me into a more open way with sucidal thoughts like I told more of my close friends and it did kinda relieve me that they can accept me and some others can relate to me and it felt relieve and to kinda tie a reason on why Sayori affected me to do that is because I think she made me feel seen and I had a feeling if I continue to lock that part of me up I would have made her choice

So another thing before I stop writing about this part is that during that whole conversation with Sayori saying like I don’t want you to worry about me and more along the lines of that just makes me worst that kinda how abit I felt when coming out with friends about my suicidal tendencies, like I don’t want your feelings to me to grow but I also need it

It all feels so contradictory and I hated that

But stuff like that has been just running in my thoughts on how her lines just hit me in a deep relatable level that since I had the game and free time once again I wanted to try to see if anything has changed with my thoughts when playing through her route (I went to the yuri route when I first played but choose to love her cuz she made me feel seen)

And things I picked up is that I kinda also went what she went through without realizing it cuz I had two friends right that I had both former crushes on and I help them get together and during the helping them two I kinda realized huh I falling for a bit of both of them again and I can’t do anything about because they at the precipice of getting together so I would just be selfish if I just try to butt myself in ya know and aaahhgggh that final day with Sayori saying I wanted you to make friends but while you getting close to them it felt like a spear into my heart and then another part is that I just being selfish is just like got so much more relatable

Just watched neon genesis Evangelion up to the end of Evangelion and I have some stuff to just wanna spout out cuz it really brain melting to me

And before I start this going to have spoilers for NGE anime and end of evangelion

NGE anime

NGE is such a beautiful series like the vibe of the show captures this world that is both ours but slightly curved to a different direction

Just seeing the clash of old technology and the sci fi stuff creates this atmosphere of what a world could have been.

In the beginning The Monster of the week feeling was a great felt like this Saturday morning cartoon/ power rangers show where they fight monster and I kinda missed watching those but what made me like it was how the problem was really more earth shattering scary than how those old shows made it seem, like each threat had a real possibility to end the world and destroy the city pretty quickly if not stop

The episode that had more slice of life elements really drew me into the world like the Asuka and Shinji synchronized episode was probably one of may favorite cuz it expand the relationship between the characters so nicely

I love how terrifying the anime is like how they made the Eva 01 eat that angel like a ravenous beast was so creepy and unsettling

And speaking of unsettling just the ending it was such a departure from the beginning of monster of the weak world is ending stuff to this inner turmoil that was brewing in the back of story finally pops it lid, like from the characters problems just show out and just leave me in a state of shock cuz these characters problems are way deeper than just “I want to not fight” and I love it for that

Other creepy things is just that killing Rei clones scene and wow it just makes my skin crawl with all of those smiles from that usual emotionless character and death how all of them

Shoutout to the mini au world I love those in story to see how the world would have been with the apocalypse (please tell me if the fandom have more stuff in that mini universe)

But yea from the monster of the week to the strange ending I love it all

Charters now time ranked from best to least favorite

Koworu

Best gay person ever I love this character so much, He is so cool and I wish I that there was more of him in the show, but his inclusion in his ending pretty solid like I want so much more romance with him cuz he was sooooo kind and nice in the cruel world of NGE

Misato

Shout out to the Problematic girl boss she’s an amazing character very deep and all of just her She feels like an actual person who went through stuff and knows the hard decisions in life and want to go past She’s only human and her hypocrisy shows and I think that’s why she is my second favorite character

Asuka

You’re starting to probably see a pattern on this list, All of the more loud characters are my favorite because it’s just more personality to them in this world like as Asuka would say, but these characters bring the life to the show and that’s why I really like like Asuka in introduction generates conflict to the other characters and really needed in a show like this

Kensuke

This used to be my favorite character when he was introduced, but the others took his place real fast once I got to know them, but this guy has a soft place in my heart because it was like the first person to feel like a human like you excited to see these robots, he genuine when talking to his friends, but I feel like his hidden sadness of like I know I’m gonna die so I wanna die seeing this really hits hard

Shinji 

He is a mess, Boy failure in the highest degree but its problems really is compelling to me, just wanting to run away from all of these pains and responsibility is so real, but his constant need to the story the role of the robot that gets him back to fight all of these monsters is really sad because he does suffer so much by being inside that robot and it’s sad to see each time he’s being forced not just by everyone by the world to fight is deeply saddening, and the world would’ve ended each time he doesn’t go into that robot so he is genuinely needed as it constantly shows the anime that without him, people will die so he is truly needed would’ve been higher up, (but that scene I expected worse because of how the Internet was infamously saying about that scene, but I’m glad it was just that and not anymore worse that it could’ve been still that was a terrible thing that he did disgusting but the Internet made it out to be way worse than I thought so yeah that was really yucky and made him a less like character to me)

Rei

Rei just creeps me out like when there is the moments of just that whole movie and that scene of those bodies getting ripped by the science lady was terrifying she is definitely I see the appeal of that type of character of this emotionless person, but I feel like it just creeps me out way more than it does for the other people I do not see that much of an appeal for her, make definitely has some cute moments but yea, I can’t say much (also it creep to put her face everywhere at the end of everything I think that my main dislike about her)

 Toji

I definitely dislike his first appearance of him punching Shinji and also him flashing, but overall, I feel like his depth like his backstory is really interesting and that brings them up to my favorites

Movie

The first part, oh my God brutality, one of the first pieces of media made me sick to stomach like wow the robot fighting and eating each other like creep me out but the horrors truly show when it was humans fighting humans, cuz it was easy for me to see the robot fights as yea that destruction was definitely crazy but that just an anime fictional thingy but the human war that happen was so cruel and the display of violence was so real like people can do that and that unsettling thought really just makes my stomach disgusted.

Part two was something y’all the surreal thing about was everything that the last parts of Eva was all about, the the realization of what does it mean to be a person and like all those meanings and constant asking of questions was sooooooooo both so confusing but I feel like i understand what it was doing and i think the meaning is that as who you are is made made by both the perception of others and your self which yea makes sense when said like that but it the fear of being perceive is in that meaning too

( This last paragraph probably either was said in this fandom millions or times of probably some nonsensical string of words )

Ending think right up

But yea NGE is in my top ten anime’s cuz like all of the messages how they made the characters and definitely the cool fights and action pieces

And it was a exceptional experience y’all, ( Spoilers a head for the non telepaths and psychics)

So the last season I heard it was just meh till the end from my friends who whatched it and DAMN they were dead wrong on that mark I LOVE BEGINNING TO END THIS SEASON

Want to talk about each arc that blown me away

Which I don’t have a single clue what the fandom name these arcs so I gonna make some simple names for it

Back to mob arc (1-3 episode)

Was really amazing as a starter for what to come for those school elements that was every episode that was ther. I related to mob so good dam hard that first episode from just his fear of the future and that advice gave at the really helps me get my head looking forward at the future without fear but with excitement for the possibility. Just speech from the teacher was soooo reassuring and I could just understand on that feeling so hard then that yokai hunter episode was just hilarious and cute having mob solves his own problems in such a way that incorporates his passion and reliability was just a real fun time to watch. Having that yokai king( the one that mob made) was cute to seee all of that effort that been put together. And now what I I would say the last place episode and by no means I think it was bad I just felt incomplete but with that next arc it has been a amazing to hint at and show what to come .

The divine tree arc (4-6)

This arc was just sooo good and for it was too reason the eeriness of the first part like how everyone started to ignore mob and starts to be more of a out cast while the religion starts to slowly take over. Like this what was One of favorite YouTuber videos Supereyepatch wolf video about social anxiety horror was about ( and yall should watch that video if you want to explore that same feeling with mob) but yea having that feeling of slowly becoming a outcast is just a fear that now looms over me. And then having those little scary moments of just the spread will linger in my mind for a while. The other part of why I love this arc is dimple from how he was in the beginning and end. I don’t know what the opinion on the beginning of the arc about dimple but I loved how unnerving it was about. The concept of someone takes your place is equally as scary as the becoming a outcast to your friends and I think it went hand by hand perfectly but the ending with dimple was sooooooooooo good like I thought oh easy back stab here but the genuine kindness that mob showed actually made him change and I love that soo much and how he made mob go home made me cry actually tears with that wave because aaaaahhhh I can’t really explain it in words but if anyone can explain please do but it was so gooood.

Space arc( 7-8)

This was just a cute nice simple arc. I just love how it expanded so much with occult club members and it just so cute and wholesome having them together, and the message of make memories is resonating to me sooo hard. Wanting to make a friend dream a reality is real heartwarming and how it explored more on a different psychic is really interesting and love that new character so much with his excitement for the adventure. And the aliens was just a treat to because having them there made sense in that strange world of mob psycho and having them either real or not really didn’t matter but just making them real felt so complete.

Final (9-12)

Okay ao I. I don’t want dismiss the other parts of this great season but wow this is the best way to end a series like this one from the amazing action to the most heart felt speeches and the overall tone of this felt soo right. Having experienced this was great bringing back last season big bad was a treat and the fights were great but that running scene from Reigan was just immaculate just him running towards Mob as the world turns to ruins it just amazing. And I love how each character ending was felt so complete like with Teruki Hanazawa him with that scene calling himself mobs rival was soo good he save everyone because he knew that fighting mob wasn’t the main thing but protecting mob from killing people was. And there were so many more great moments like this to round out most characters in this great story. But we have to talk about tumblr sexy man Reigan and his speech and I don’t know how many people are said this but I just love how he was honest to mob and helped him accept himself to become more of a complete person and it just makes me have goosebumps from just listening to him admitting to his faults it just soooo god damn good.

The more I understand about Eva by just talking to other people, the consensus I’ve been getting is that so many interpretations can be made from this and I just love that about the series is that so many people could interpret it as in different ways And I think that why I came to love this series is that it can be soo thoroughly researched and that doesn’t have to be the definitive way to view it, and the more I just communicate with other people views the vast differences between each perspective can be seen

Like with the reblog from the top image I really didn’t think much on why there was so much more brutality than OG Eva ending and just think oh it a movie they have a bigger budget to do these brutal scenes, but the view on that being a response or more of a retaliation against fans who wanted more action and sex makes a lot of sense and put it a just greater emphasis on why the brutality( malicious compliance to the fans is how I see it)

I love alll the main squad they are all sooooo amazing, they all have their funny quirks and personalities and they are all cute the damn time

I want to talk about my Favorite out the club and that is the main guy, the one who bought his dad company and thrown back harder than ever, KO Kyoya Ootori. He is just the guy to me he exudes this confidence that I aim to have and this drive to be the best out of spite of his shit ass father. From the start he soo evil and petty and money hungry and I already like them FICTIONAL manipulator and love the trope of these manipulators actually like being good but has to look evil just for the theatrics. He has the only backstory that made me weep a bit just because how his problems to me seem realistic with parental pressure and stuff and the ways he felt with it amazing.

Now probably me second and third favorite keep on battling each other in my mind on which is second and that is our Crossdressing Trans ally drag king Haruhi Fujioka and the over the top, baby girl and girl failure coded Tamaki Suoh. These two are such engaging characters that I love them both and each time I see them are just such hilarity, having the straight and funny man bit ( this also extends to KO) but the way how this rich money man is just the most sweet glue of a dude is just so comforting and then haruhi peasant poor girl being the most realistic and kind just make both a real good protagonist and helps put a self into her mind for most of us poor dudes.

AND I LOVE THAT LAST EPISODE WHEN THEY FALL OFf THE BRIDGE TOGETHER IT WAS SOME SUCH A GREAT MOMENT THAT DID NOT FORCE ANY KISSES AND STILL SHOW THAT THEY DO CARE SHOW THAT THEY CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER without kissing.

Now the mischievous tall goobers the Twins themselves self Kaoru Hitachiin and Hikaru Hitachiin, at first I was off put by the incestive suggestion but from how the story goes on I can now understand that it just a over exaggerated bit but they still do care for each other and they are just both are fun characters to annoy the rest, each of the episodes they have really draws a great difference in characters and love how they interact with the world

( also I can still not tell them apart but they’ve different personalities)

Now the mountain of man Mori(Takashi Morinozuka) he just a really cool tall dude who just very sweet and socially awkward as teens I know are and there is nothing much to talk about but he reminds of ferb( Phineas and Ferb) and that just makes him cooler.

Now for the final dude the tiny yet the strongest out of the group the humanoid typhoon wrong moniker I meant the human super weapon Mitsukuni "Honey" Haninozuka. He has such a funny bit and just a wholesome little guy. And that episode with his brother calling him an alien is just had me dying of laughter from the strangeness of this little dude.