#excerptofastory

It was stupid of me to have hope. Hope always tears me apart in the end, I always have false hope and it only leaves a dull ache where my heart is supposed to be.” She sighed, her eyes looking down to the ground. After a moment, her dark eyes peered up at me. She looked at me for a second before speaking, her voice trembling. “Don't do that to yourself, have hope that I'll be there for you and that I'll stay because false hope will only end up breaking you. It will be the thing that shatters you inside.

Slowly the tears flew down my face and I knew nothing would be the same as it was just a few hours ago. “That’s it? You say my love is not enough to make you stay?”, he whispered in the could air of his little car. Hearing the crack in his voice, I breathed in very deeply. More tears streamed out of my eyes so that I’d only saw him blurred. I couldn’t find the right words to explain him how much I love him and that he’s my whole world although he never gave me the feeling I’m his too. “Give me an answer. I deserve it, don’t I?”, he said in an harsh way like he always does when he’s desperate. “I love you, with every cell of my body. You’re the air to my lungs. But I need more. Somedays I can hardly breathe because I’ve got the feeling you’re thinking about me less from time to time. You always say that you love me but how can I believe it when you only call me in your darkest hours”, I mumbled while my hands laid upon his, “I want to be a part of your brightest moments. I need more, don’t you understand? I need more light coming from you.”